Hi people, I have abandoned this blog and moved to another.


http://aslaptoyourback.blogspot.com/

Trying to start afresh.

I'm trying to start a new blog. But the verification system seems to be hindering my progress.
Screw this. Seriously.

obviously

actually, when shit happens, who does it always involve? you.
for those on the opposition, do what you want. have your own say. i lost control of my anger and got bashed.

i'm not going to help anymore. bye bye.

random titles, doing the style. once more.

It's been awhile. I don't even know why I'm back here. Anj was reading the old posts and I was somehow intrigued to find out how I was in the past. Something was tempting me. hmm.

Well I shouldn't have. I can't even think of anything to post up here.

but reading through parts of 2009 and 2010 really did crack myself a bit.

I really shouldn't have read them.

And now I got myself into something I don't want to. I warned myself, I warned her. Now what.

I really hate this. Fuck.

growing up

I think it all boils down to whether I am prepared for it, or not.

Being thrusted into being the sole breadwinner for the family. I don't think I'm ready for it, yet.
Its too fast. I don't want to say goodbye to my role model in life, this soon.
Not yet, I want you to see me grow up and reach adult-hood and rely on me as someone responsible.

Please wait for that to happen, pa.

Please, don't see the mistake. Please. please please. ahhh

Dam. I so want to give a few whacks to a drumset.

Please Rain

X'mas is over. It felt so long. It was a long weekend, honestly.

I got my first nerf! its an alpha trooper! not like I really care about the technical terms of the toy but, finally! I was actually waiting for a value buy. Initially, I wanted to get a Recon just like the others but after looking at its performance, I got turned off.

As for the other later models, not worth the buy too. $$ and performance. Till this little guy came and I was like, O.K! time to get one myself. And yep, I am very satisfied with my purchase.

On to X'mas shopping, one word to describe it. Great! Never shopped this much before getting things that I actually want. Got 2 pairs of spec frames for both gf and me. Sweet. Couple wear.

shoes, clothes and thats all. Happy with the day being spent.

Back to work.

Its X'mas!

Let me just give a quick post before my girlfriend finds out that I've been skiving when I told her I was busy.

Its nearing X'mas and X'mas eve is today! How shall I put this. 2010 had been a year packed with many shit and good stuffs. I'll just briefly summarize, first quarter of the year was hell. Total black. 

After June, things got a little brighter and as of now, I'm pretty content with my life. 

Anyway, I'm still discontented with somethings. Perhaps it isn't wise to list it out for the public to see, considering I've learnt a very harsh lesson. I shall just be quiet and slowly fade away.

What is it that demands so much of my attention? I don't think I should. I have other things to worry about and focus on. 

This isn't my passion, this isn't part of my circle. But it was where I got to know great people. Big or small. They have made an impact on my life. Still, I don't have the will to commit anymore. 

Wait, since when have I from the beginning? I'm only capable of standing by the sidelines and watch. Maybe give a few kicks and pushes and verbal supports. That is all.

Either way, I'll just sit back, watch and do nothing.

On that black note, I wish everyone a Merry X'mas and a happy new year.

Totally didnt had time to blog at all. It seems only possible when I'm really really bored with nothing to do. Anyway, the haze is back everyone. Reminds me of my primary school days. Just that, it's totally different this time. Driving with he skies so gloomy, it almost gave me the impression that I'm driving thru Racoon City of Resident Evil's fame.

I kind of like the gloomy atmosphere though. It gets gloomy enough when there're rain clouds.

And i got attacked by <3's cat. B was trying to carry it away from the back of my car and the cat somehow lost balanced the grabbed on to me, sinking it's left claws into my left shoulder. It REALLY went in. And I was trying to pull it away and couldnt, that was when I realized, the cat had grappled itself onto the flesh of my left shoulder.

Finally pulled it out and I sucked out some blood. Hopefully that'll rid some of the infection that would occur.

Ok I'm hungry.

eh can hurry up...the sun getting bigger leh...

brushing off the dust from my blog, I realised blogging for me is a pretty much on and off thing.
I don't own an iphone (and I don't intend to get one since I kind of hate apple products now).

What I need is better time management for myself and hell, get rid of all ERP gantries if possible.
 I think this world needs more love and much stricter discipline.
Self control is not possible for every individual but have a heart to think.
Don't be the cause of another's suffering just for your moment of pleasure. If you made a mistake, be sure to change.


Ok, enough "wise" crap. I need to sleep soon. long day ahead for me tomorrow.
argh.


<3 anj!

a side glace into the mirror

am I disappointing those who had expectations?

it came true.

Honestly, I don't feel the drive anymore. why.





you'll always be in our heart, pena. 9/9/10

ORD

I wonder if i was truly happy during the course of my 2 year service. Much of it was filled with foolish misery brought upon by myself and too many mistakes were made.
Well...take it as a learning experience. Having power over civilians was not easy. You will have the urge to abuse it at every opportunity (which by RIGHT you don't need to). Some will disagree with you and think it would be perfectly normal and to identify yourself as an officer of the law.
I see that as the reason why they're not the ones with the blue uniforms. You need to see if the situation doesn't put you in an awkward situation. We don't just jump in and everything will go your way. Its not always like in the soap operas or shows.

That aside, ORD. One more duty shift. I was feeling half melancholic but now, i prefer to be napping on my comfy bed.

Its nearing the end of my night shift and i wish my girlfriend is sleeping soundly and comfortably. <3

Shit happens.

The phone that kept me occupied, a tool for communication and since 2 months back, my mobile internet surfer.
At duty now. 7 more days! Freedom!

I'm missing you. Get well soon pls you silly <3

Know your limits, young man.

You're still living in your teenage days. The kind society ignore, or laugh at how young you are. Don't taint the colour of the brotherhood. You're a disgrace for doing what you are attempting to do right now. I have my resources. Watch your step.

Rating to be advised.

I have a very sexy and adorable girlfriend. Whee.
Currently on duty and i can't sleep. My throat is getting urgh.

I really need a normal day with proper sleeping time. Just once.

Away from gigging life, apart from honing my drumming and all the shit that had caused the unhappiness in the ridiculously sensitive me, i really do hope to get a very normal day in which i'll get to spend with my family and <3 . I want sometime to ourselves, cultivate the bond and break the misunderstandings that ever took place.
I thought it was the ultimate setback, one which i would never recover. Turns out i was wrong. Thanks for sticking with me throughout my emotional crisis and listening to my shit almost everyday.

Your letter brought me smiles. I love you, sweet (:

Hor fun isn't fun at all

How long have i left this space untouched? I guess i was either too busy or too lazy to do an update. When i had the spare time, it would most likely be spent with my sweet girl.

Quite a bit had happened these past few days and <3 was always there to calm me down. My personality is somehow changing and changing. Well i hope its for the better.

And neo's birthday barbecue was a success!

I don't know if you've been keeping tabs on my blog since i haven't been updating for so long. <3 you!

i need more posters on my wall

its amazing isn't it. we just happen to have everything alike. down to preferences.
it is just a day away but like you mentioned, it doesn't really matter. <3


hell, one isn't enough. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 


ok, imma go prepare for work now.