was everything just a fleeting dream? it all just changed after meeting me on our 1st day.
i know im not good looking, im not particularly good in anything but im trying my best.

the period of time when i needed you the most.
its almost the same as last year...i was so afraid history was going to repeat itself again.
you didn't gave me the chance to even be your friend after we broke up, and the reason was because you didn't want to give me false hope...
i accept that. but even before we broke up, you already started treating me like that.

i don't know what this "weird feeling" is but i really can't accept the fact that its all over.

i really don't know what to do now.
and neither do i know what to want you to do.

love can't be forced. why must it even exist in the first place.

everything happened so fast that I wasn't even given the time to cry...
was it because i didn't spend enough time with you?
was it because of my stuck up attitude?

i seriously don't know.

i wonder if you still care bout me at all...cos you removed everything that has to do with me.
my only wish is that you'll keep that piece of drawing i drew for you.
for what was written on it, is true.

onto something else.
O's are coming O.O went to study with loco and the rest of the group yesterday...oh yeah ..

ITS MOUSEY and Frozen's birthday . don't say i bo xim la hors. hahaha
gave you 2 lolipops....thats all i could afford at that moment since it was so last minute...and it was gone in your mouths in less than 10 min >.>


heres something i took from one of the forum threads =x credits go to the threadstarter...but i forgot the nick so heck ...
tag on the board if you ever see this...ok..?....OK...?!



Imagine this for a moment... (no, this is not a Samsung advertisment)

You've just passsed your driving test, and you're buying a new car. You visit 2 separate car showrooms. The first salesman comes at you, desperate to sell a car to you. Every time he makes an offer and you hesitate. He quickly lowers the price just to please you.

Then you visit the second showroom, and salesman#2 appears very professional and talks in a slow and steady manner. He makes you an offer, and whether you accept or not. He doesn't lower his price drastically, no matter how hard you try to bargain. And as you think about the offer he has made, he proudly says, "This is a great car, it's really value-for-money. Every single cent you pay is definitely worth it. If you agree with my asking price, you can take it . Or you can leave it. Because, someone else will certainly purchase this car."

Now, imagine that you have an opportunity to get either of these two cars for free. Which one would you get? The second one of course. Because it automatically is perceived as being more valuable, because the salesman made it appear as if his car was in demand, and that it was worth having.

On the other hand, the first salesman seemed desperate. He made it seem as if no one else wanted the car in the first place, so he would take what he could get for it.

Well, this is exactly how women look at a guy. If he seems desperate(by calling all the time, or harrasing her), she thinks he is worthless.

The other guy who maintains his pride and remains calm and steady would be perceived as being valuable.

This turns her on and can give the average looking guy a huge advantage over a very good looking guy.



haha. i find it pretty true when it comes to choosing a car or buying canned foods or anything...

but i disagree if you're to apply it when choosing a partner... hmmms~



and i wish i can reverse the time and start all over again ...

it started out about a few months back ...we started chatting and all ...
on the 31st august, it was the first time i went to the movies with you. the time we spent together, i treasured it a lot. after that, the days and hours we were together, out walking and sharing the moments together, i was happy.

it was happiness just being with you, it was happiness to see you and it is happiness to love you.
no matter what happens, i'll still love you as i've always do.







even if you don't love me anymore.
i wish you'll come back.

was a lil bit bored after doing my maths sum...so here i am...
went thru some of my song collections in a folder.
2 years, 2.45gb worth of memories in music.

its kind of hard to describe but it gave me a certain kind of feeling when i played "Dogfight" from the initial D anime....its like, segments of my life can be brought up thru the music, the feeling of being in that moment.

take for example, when i close my eye, Albeiro and Crosswise...really brings back many unwanted memories...though the negative effects are no longer that severe, i still feel a sting of pain just reliving those memories.

but hell. on to something interesting i came across today in a forum.
kinda common for this kind of thing...

It's no surprise that woman speak in another language. They are subtle creatures, sneaky, devious, and say things in code. It's time for men to break the code of womanese!

For your reading pleasure, bold will be the woman. Normal text will be the explanation.

I'm not looking for a relationship right now.

TRANSLATED: I don't want a relationship WITH YOU. Don't even BOTHER trying to go out with me since I am saying that a relationship with you and me is already not going to happen.

I don't think of you in 'that' way.
My goodness, are you ugly and a sexual dud!

I think of you as a brother!

-OR-

You remind me of my brother!
I would consider sex with you to be incest.


We were both wrong.
But you were more wrong!

This recipe didn't turn out how I expected.
I burned dinner.


Have you had time to...
Stop what you're doing, get up, and do it RIGHT NOW!

When you get a chance...
Do this immediately!

I hate to nag but...
I want you to get off the couch now!

Of course I don't mind paying for myself.
Cheap date!

Let's not rush things.
I have other prospects.

I'm not ready to settle down.
I sure as heck don't want to settle down with YOU!

I enjoy the single life!
I enjoy not being with YOU!

I need more space!
You're becoming undesirable and unattractive.


I'm focusing on my 'career'.
My training and studying for my career is extremely boring and tedious yet more exciting then you'll ever be.

Let's just give it some time.
You're not high on my rating list. You're good insurance policy if a better prospect doesn't show up.

I like you, but...
I don't like you at all.


Honesty is very important to me.
Only tell me what I want to hear.

I only like you as a friend.
I'm not attracted to you.


We need...
I want...

Can you call me back? I need to...
I just need an excuse to get off the phone. I didn't want to hurt your feelings so I LIED BLATANTLY TO YOUR FACE. Oh, and have a nice day!

How about you give me YOUR number.
I'll add it to my trophy collection of guy's phone numbers - pathetic guys who want me but I don't want them!


I'm not upset...
I'm upset.


Do you love me?
I'm going to ask you for something expensive...

Am I fat?
Please tell me I'm beautiful.

I love men who take charge...
Pay the bill, you chump!

This is going to be a challenge.
This is going to be a problem.


I met with some challenges today.
I met with some problems today.


This girl is so challenging to me.
This girl is so problematic for me.



well, what do YOU think?

iloveyou, linda (:

jerry and ah pek dueling on the drums.
better sound quality and better viewing... ;DDDD


next, alfie and jiv ... ;OOOOO

it happened again, you bitch. the 3rd time, in which you shamelessly admit it yourself.
how stupid can you get, 14 years of education, 22 years old already and in university.

sec sch, you left your handphone on the basin and entered the cubicle to do your business. you came out and to your horror, your handphone was stolen! wow, such a surprise! you actually expected someone be there polishing your handphone and hand it to you after you came out the cubicle? fat hope idiot.

2nd time, i don't know when it happened but since you said this was the 3rd time, i reckon there must be a 2nd time.
3rd time, you went to your friends house last night, came back without a handphone.

"aiyah, her pattern like that one lah. you know liao still go nag at her for what?"
not just mom, but even my aunt tells me that. should i just leave you alone while you do stupid things in the family? like switching the small insignificant lamp in the kitchen along with the main ceiling lights in the kitchen.

and and, leaving all the lights in the house on and went to blast your music in your room. you think this is a clubbing house?
sheesh, cant think of anything more to comment on this matter anymore.

holidays at home alone are such a bore. other than constant mugging, theres nothing else i can do much... gotta overcome my O levels first.

nowadays, my posts seem to be filled with words of anger and hate. and hell no i am not under stress. :D

here are the videos for yesterdays 7th Drum Exchange, ehhhh, enjoy =x
a lil bit noisy though. hahaha


and heres the guy doing some sambal grooves. i find it dam cool with that whistle thingy. haha!



and the double pedal madness.
i couldn't hear anything at all in this video, but it was dam fierce over there. 2 drumsets battling out on double pedals ...!!


ily (:

cousin yunxin's 21st birthday today . i took no photos...didn't want to be such a gay camwhore...ah well. lol cuzzy yinlong took a lot of photos though.

pretty much fun. the food. hahahaha and omfg DEXTER resembles yinlong so much in appearance O.O i mistook him for yinlong when i went into the clubhouse =____________=

alls pretty well. just feeling tired...need to work more on my drum grooves after going to the drum meet. videos will be up soon too though the sound quality would be...err >.>

and how cool is this? i got an ad from Clearisil! look! its up there !!!!

and the 2nd one, is over there! ------->

and the 3rd is, is below!

my tagboard is over there! ----------->

i seriously can't get enough of that mocca ad. i love it hahahaha.
maybe i should get Clerasil too ..... @.@

imy dumb! <3

and Trigun™ rocks . saw the preview. :DDDDDD


drummers wan sui.

i apologise for not blogging all this while.
been pretty busy with my mugging ...
first up, replying tags~

wanling: haha yeah i will....you too. :DDDD

YING : ily too dumb (:

ryan : haha feiz. this kind of thing, is nothing, compared to poly life i reckon...much less to say when entering in the workforce and many other things as these people start to really get into the community. they're pretty much blinded within the small boundaries of their lifestyle ...

flora : nvm la ...stupid magarine. haha you also...your own social circle is pretty much as complicated as mine ... :DDDD

Mr CcWj : yeah clement...i will...provided you peeps would be having one hahaha
aaaannnddddd, if linda wants me to go :x

xiaocarol : okok lols im trying very hard to focus now ...see ya after my O's. we need to do alot of catch up and practice. (:

minwei :i don't really wish to drag this anymore or whatsoever. as you can see, the tag was deleted. i will not allow conflicts or any unhappiness to occur on my blog, needless to say, as a platform to lecture others when they could only understand the situation to the extent of the post in which i blogged a few days ago. they have a right to tag and give positive/negative comments with regards to my posts. henceforth, i would strongly discourage you, as well as others, to reprimand ANYONE just because they don't know what really happened.

perhaps i was just overreacting, for i didn't really read that tag of yours but deleted it the moment i saw that 1 of it was directed against friends who have commented with regards to my post . no hard feelings mate.



ending note, this is my blog.
these are my daily thoughts defined as words here.
hope to blog more, but i doubt so. O's starting...

cheers all.
ily dumb <3

actually, i told myself that i won't blog about it while in school.
but yeah, if its something that others should know, i believe it should and it shall be that way .
to let people know that im such an attitude guy(to you, and some perhaps).

played chapteh, accidentally kicked in the wrong direction and it hit amandas face. ooo. i apologised. i was extremely apologetic. but you gave the wtf did you just do.
so ok, nvm.

recess, i went to apologise again but lo and behold, you cut me off and said "bu yao fan wo" in a most mean tone.
i get the message, its you with the attitude problem, not me.
if you read this or anyone from my class do, this is my fucking blog and i do what i want.
the last time it happened on minweis blog, this time it is my blog.
you can't accept what i blogged here, get the fuck out.

i don't really care if some of you are gonna anti me, fine .
i'd say, GO AHEAD. i don't care bout 5C anymore. except for the minority who still chat with me , i really appreciate you people for being so tolerant of my behaviour sometimes,
and i know i speak in a very different manner, say, my accent, but you don't have to harp on it.
i don't really fancy the way people criticize that im trying to act english like.

BUT THIS IS ME. i can be silent at times, i can be mad at times and i can be like an ogre if i want to.

so stfu and wear a mask if you can't keep your emotions under control.


and for gawds sake, don't bring your personal matters and emotions out of your comfy home when its got nothing to do with us and unleash it upon US.

you might as well stay cooped up in bed with your bedroom slippers and yawn like a prat.

remedials in the morning at 9. couldn't wake up though. haha


ah gongs birthday at night. someone seems to have grown prettier ehs... O.O
but like what cousin yun xin said, shes too young for me.
ah fgs. i was just trying to say shes an eye candy...not like im gonna do anything. =.=
linda linda linda <3 haven't been meeting you for a long time. im missing you as always (:

something happened in S.O.F.T today.
ignorance is bliss.
but this is simply too entertaining to ignore...seeing him trying his pitiful attempts to insult and depress others...

From: paulgilbertsuckssucks
To: xenOgenesis(me)

Posted: Sun Sep 23, 2007 2:13 am (the forums date and time is wrong. the message was sent around Sept 12.25am Sunday. )

Subject: hey sorry

you are such a loser , i saw you blog hahah ah lian boy hahaha . gay gay gay gay gay . act cute lorxx . what is your major malfunction ah idiot . you think you are coolzz , did i spell that right haha i hope you band fails cause you probably suck at whatever you play BAND LEADER haha band leader



from some of his postings, he revealed that hes a poly student...having his holidays...nothing to do...lazy to get a job...and wow, he even bothered himself to dig out every thread he could find and flame it.

wonderful job. im sure you'll have a bright future being a janitor for the rest of your life.
i know you've found my blog already as the URL is indicated in my signature. =O

happy reading. haha