is sorry the only thing i'm capable of saying and not doing anything?

why the fuck did i have to open my mouth. why the fuck didn't i make a difference.

fuck myself.

Reaching Jhana

Music Sharing

our own compositions,
Strive
Not Without You
Buddhist Boy

enjoy.

Strive



Not Without You



Buddhist Boy

Video by Zheming

i'm still looking forward to that day...

Valentines

time check, its Valentines Day today. Its a happy day for some people, a lonesome and depressing one for some.

which do you belong to?

feeling a little...hopeful?

things are on the brighter side. too many things were left unsaid and i was practically living in my own world...oblivious to other things =.=

ah well.

this is what happens when there are too many linens to spare. lol

you don't need to smile when hurting someone

i will never forget the smell of your hair.

sigh :\

where are you...how are you...are you alright...are you feeling well and happy...i want to know that you're doing ok and safe...

hmm.

just finished my essay report.



well, someday..sometime... self-cheering batteries are almost exhausted. oh nos. D: sadface

argh

dilemma. dilemma. didn't really have much appetite for the whole week. a week of 3 meals per day at HTA, i think i only ate about 4 meals througout this week only? but nvm...

returned from interview and my, it was extremely tense back there. my heart was already pounding when i was only outside the door. overall, i think the whole thing went well..can't reveal much. OSA. lol

i really do hope the worst case scenario will not happen.

Du Lan

slept pretty late last night, woke up around 12. headed down with the gang to PKS at Guang Ming Shan to steal some brunch. there was some farewell event going on so we just went in and "herher, hi, oh hi hi" grabbed some food, went out of the hall to grill the mushrooms. the packet of vegetarian butter that was originally full, was reduced to the size of a mobile phone by the time we were done with our grilling.

haha, went off in zhemins car after that. there wasn't enough space so i volunteered for the car boot. pretty fun, cept for the limited air in which i had to control my breathing. i thought i had Claustrophobia, turns out it was actually interesting to me. LOL

the whole ride in the boot was peaceful, until we came to the hump and i was like #@$%.
signed up for library premium membership. why? just cos i can loan games from bishan libray. LOL.


i will change, i must change. i want you back. i need you.