the gentle hands

hi guys, been pretty busy the whole day. national service really sucks your energy and life. duty shift tomorrow night till friday morning. sounds boring right? and to add on to the injury, i'm still feeling miserable everyday.

wonder how i'm supposed to survive tomorrow. whats my next step?

i just need you.

the alarm clock

almost gave in to the old bug of mine. seriously, i almost screwed it up again. oh man, whats happeneing to me. keep calm..4 more hours before i'm leaving for camp. dont think i'll sleep much...

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punches the wall

hi people, i'm back (:

i guess a one day of self-reflection didn't do much but it improved my emotions tremendously.
many thoughts ran through my mind while i was doing some thinking. its personal and extremely private so i won't be revealing it here :D haha

today, we went to the Woodlands Checkpoint to do a tour on the various security measures against illegal immigrants and checkpoint offenders. the cat-claw is simply amazing! just a small button and a vehicle can be immobilized to scrap.

we went to the cafeteria during lunch time. even though food was to be provided back at camp, i went on and bought myself a big meal...after days of starving myself. it actually calms my mind and made me think hard. anyway, i didn't really liked the food prepared back at the camp.

going to practice my songs now. blessing and wishes to everyone, may you be well and happy.
thanks to all my friends, PKL gang, Reaching Jhana and many others who had tried their best to cheer me up. you guys were great and i'm fortunate to know people like you all.
i wouldn't have pulled through if not for all of you. THANKS!


i'm still thinking though.

with deepest regret, this blog shall not be updated till another person does so.

is sorry the only thing i'm capable of saying and not doing anything?

why the fuck did i have to open my mouth. why the fuck didn't i make a difference.

fuck myself.

Reaching Jhana

Music Sharing

our own compositions,
Strive
Not Without You
Buddhist Boy

enjoy.

Strive



Not Without You



Buddhist Boy

Video by Zheming

i'm still looking forward to that day...

Valentines

time check, its Valentines Day today. Its a happy day for some people, a lonesome and depressing one for some.

which do you belong to?

feeling a little...hopeful?

things are on the brighter side. too many things were left unsaid and i was practically living in my own world...oblivious to other things =.=

ah well.

this is what happens when there are too many linens to spare. lol

you don't need to smile when hurting someone

i will never forget the smell of your hair.