SOMETHING FISHY.

and the interesting part is, he wasn't removed even after so much publicity of his rude personality.
jason told me that the previous crew left the team because they couldn't stand the old man (whom i originally thought to be very nice. ) seriously, the whole organization can go nuts for all i care. won't be going back there anymore, not even a peek. haha

girl, just ignore the whole thing and don't reply back or shoot them back. its pointless.

just returned from the funeral parlour. bathed, prepped and going back there to jaga the place while my cousin sleeps beside his father.

the rest of this post are for those who are willing to read and know my family matters.

its extremely sudden. one minute he was talking and chatting and laughing with my dad, the next minute, hes gone. nothing can be compared to the grief of my dad and his beloved brothers family.

they had been working together even before i was born, started off a private company and going rich during that period of time. for more than 30 years.

years passed, economic times were bad. everyone was having financial problems. my dad and his brother held fast and pulled thru, even now, we're all struggling.
whenever my dad went overseas for matters concerning the buddhist society, my uncle would single-handedly manage the company himself, holding on till my dad returns.

he felt pains in his chest and phoned my dad. i think he had been suffering from that pain already, even before my dad came back, but he just pushed it aside. went to the hospital, the doc told not to move and wheeled him into the operating theatre. diagnoised 3 blocked arteries from the heart.

cleared one, 2 more left. before his third operation, my dad and i visited him to keep him company. we laughed, talked, joked and held hands. it was reassuring to see him still in good spirits.

a few days later, he went into a coma after the 2nd operation. and days later, he passed away.
leaving behind a wife, son and daughter.


and a great brother/father, my dad.


dad told me 5th uncle was a good husband, good father and a good brother to him. he never complained, never gave up and grew up with my dad. seeing him everyday at the office, solving problems and getting businesses together.

and now its just my dad. i slept in uncles office this morning, after a night without sleep, jaga-ing the funeral parlour while cousin weijie slept. felt a soft and gentle caress while i was half asleep.

it is sad. and i cry again.

too much grammar and vocab mistakes. gotta rush for time. ciaos.

thanks to my family and relatives for keeping together as one even in times of sadness.

the UBPKL gang, mentors and friends from SBM for keeping me company the night before the funeral. you guys cheered me up, even though most of you didn't know of my uncles demise.

and also to my girlfriend. i know you're very worried bout me, and people have been telling stories behind my back. you stood by me when everyone was against me, and you stood by me when i'm at my darkest hour. thanks for all the love you've showered me. i love you.


V said my character is one of those who hides sadness and displays happiness on the outside.
hmmm, i thought that sort of person is supposed to be you? LOL cheers mate, you are strong on the inside and out. you stayed happy for all of us even though you had a sad story going on.
for that, i admire you and i'm sure the rest of the PKL gang do. salutes~

and hes gone, forever.

i think i was not destined to post what i intended to post before.

shall let nature take its course then.

its the first time i've seen my dad cried so much. my uncle is in hospital. i don't know when he will be waking up. i'm worried. worried for my dad, worried for my uncle. they've been together for so long, seeing each other everyday, working with each other everyday.

3 days, the doctor said 3 days.
do God really exist? don't give me bullshit about "its Gods plan that he has to go" or "God doesn't have to help you to prove he exists"

i believed and i prayed once but it didn't happen. nothing ever did. if you truly exist, show me you do.

i'm suffering, everyone is. and i pray.

HAPPY.

happy anniversary, happy anniversary, happy anniversary to us~


tired from trying to install ms office. till now, no luck =.=
loving you loads :D

me: chewing on sausage, horizontally

kh: stares with suspicious look

me: what?

kh: nothing (uhm chio)

me: you jealous i'm more experienced than you is it?


LOL. like i visit changi everyday.

SCAMS.

my friendster is dead, like totally. 64 views for the month and no photos updated...my profile is growing fungi and i can't be bothered to update or change anything.

still waiting for the next DXS meetup. dam~

FOOD TASTING. and urgh.

went to raffles city for food tasting for sisters wedding dinner.

its all vegetarian. :O

even the imitation sharks fin soup was full of vegetables and mushrooms. i don't mind if its vegetarian but i can't stand when its filled with veges and those stuffs. oh well, shan't be picky. lucky to have food to eat anyway.

the staff there were extremely courteous and polite. commendable...or could it be the "customer is always right" ? >:D

the whole thing was held at clark room, i kinda find the way they name their function rooms weird. can't really remember...but a vague ORD ...saturn...no wait, thats mapex saturn drum series i was thinking about. err, lol.

and yes, my elder sisters name is Xiao Wei.

virtual flowers for you, my girlfriend (:

i think thats all for today. i had a power nap of 2 hours in which boss and nest were nice enough to not disturb me. thanks boss, and i apologise for my unreasonable attitude towards you a few days back.

nest, thanks for doing my work while i was snoring away on the chair. haha
junlong msged me this afternoon that work at music labs, is only once a month for sundays.


dam. its better than nothing anyway :D

didn't sleep the whole night. watched The DaVinci Code. it was awesome...the awe of history and mystery, totally love it~

i guess what brings the both of us together, would be music. our similarities and our understanding to the art. not seeing you everyday doesn't strain my heart, in fact absence, is the essence of faith and trust between us.

perhaps it might sound stupid to all of you, but it does strike a deep meaning to me. matter and humans, 2 different things.

if matter doesn't fall, it weakens.

if humans don't fall, it strengthens.

think what you like bout me, for those who hate me. i live my life, i know the friends and people who are genuinely pleasant at my presence, and those who are not. if you can behave in a way that i think you are a friend to me, i may or i can, do the same to you as well.

its 5.36am right now. dad scared the living shits out of me while i was watching the movie by suddenly appearing beside me asking me why i was still awake. i had my earphones so i wasn't able to hear anything from the outside.

and his shadow sort of zoomed from my front and i got startled by him from the back.
like this:

\O.O/

those 2 strokes represent my arms. serious, i did had that reaction. =_________=
i wish blogger had GillSans Bold and MS Gothic fonts. it'll make things look much classier....

random thoughts, being kept awake cos i can't stop thinking of my girlfriend.

...

am i being too mushy? =\

i managed to capture a shot of these beautiful clouds as i passed by circuit road after dinner with my parents.

so anyway, grandmothers birthday 2 days ago. wasn't able to blog bout it yesterday cos i was out with my girlfriend the whole day, and i was pretty busy today as well...had to attend a drum clinic in the evening..



dam, Dom Famularo is impressive. the thing that seperates him from other professional drummers is that he plays with feeling. reminds me of Yoshiki of X Japan. but other than that, he motivates and inspires me deeply. truly, i am humbled just by his words and personality.

this is the second drum clinic i've attended. the first was some christian drummer which i forgot his name. err, lol.

i'm lazy to caption the photos but, i'll start with 2 very adorable photos of my aunt and uncle.

cheese to the camera.

CHEESE TO ME.

i'm a bad photographer. all i did was to photoshop to enhance the photos. hahaha


unhappiness? yeah, its all me. i've done you too much wrong to apologise, so go farm your new life and don't bother me.


i'll be working at the Music Labs Studios! sundays only. hahaha. cool~ first working experience in a studio. wow wow wee wow.