never touch the conveyor belt

my blogs been gathering dust over the days.
i have nothing much to say, at least i've got back my motivation. yeah!

i can't wait for vesak days performance @ orchard. its hightime we make our presence felt.
its time to show them, that we can play music as well. spread the unconditional love thru music.


the only thing thats stalling is our penang friend, Vocals/Keyboard&Guitar who has yet to freaking come back from his hometown till april 12.
dood, hope you're safe over there. have a good time and bring back some seaweed for me.

meanwhile, i should start loving everyone and be more wise in my character.

mondays are here

hey guys i'm back. back from the underworld. haha!

Detroit Metal City was hilarious. well, the humour only applies to those who read the manga. the other day when i went to watch it, there were people who went there for one sole purpose.

to see Kenichi Matsuyama (the guy who played L).

and there was this girl who laughed incredibly loud till i couldn't even hear my own laughter. i didn't laugh much after that since she did all the laughing for me already. (with the addition of her trying to imitate a japanese girls' : eH? but failed horrendously)



leaf didnt go because the tree was still talking to leaf.
:DD

i did it again

another sleepless night. each time it happens, i end up brooding over it.

change please change for gawds sake.

think i'll fling the frisbee like a zombie tomorrow.
its time to start studying.

a friends illustration of his life till now:

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basically, it means hes happy after all the shit that had happened to him.
we are not oblivious to it. we know everything.

i


'm trying very hard to make you smile already. i can't help it if you don't want to.
and thats whats been going on. i still love you, all the same.

we are so good

one thing which most drummers are good at,
we always made it seem so easy to play the drums. our strokes are swift, our toms and snares come out just right and we look so graceful (well for some, definetly not me) swinging our sticks (no, it ISN'T blue and it does not glow like Dr. Manhattans') thrashing on the smooth drum skins.

Mike Johnston is the owner of Sacramento's first and only drum school, "The Drum Lab."
absolutely amazing and i believe, the upcoming second Dom Famularo. Dom is another inspiring drummmer with his interesting personality and humour.

Mike also uploaded a number of videos of his drum demos to share his knowledge. where else can we ever find such great people? its like a free gift for us drummers.

this is, Mike Johnston.

i pray that you'll feel better...

staring at the monitor screen, wondering what i should do next.

went for the IT fair today, saw many good deals but didn't get any. i'm not on a spree to waste all my $$ away. i guess what i bought today is going be the only treat i'll have for this month.
have this ulcer on the left side of my gums, pretty sore. the pain even went beyong the left of my neck =.=

each day i yearn. i think. i need.
back to square one.

I'll drown my beliefs
To have your babies
I'll dress like your niece
To wash your swollen feet

Just don't leave
Don't leave

I'm not living
I'm just killing time
Your tiny hands
Your crazy kitten smile

Just don't leave
Don't leave

And true love waits
In haunted attics
And true love lives
On lollipops and crisps

Just don't leave
Don't leave

Just don't leave
Don't leave


almost a year ago, footman dedicated this song by Radiohead to his special someone. today, i dedicate it to my special someone. hope you'll see this though...i don't know if you're still reading.

my mood is pretty passive at the moment, feeling blank all these while. seeing you once more is the only thing i'm looking forward to with each passing day. pray that you're safe and sound.

we visited the peranakan mueseum

pray that you'll smile again

i really wish i can make you happy at this time, make you smile and laugh amidst all your problems.

if only i'm not part of your problems.

didn't sleep for night shift again. got sucked by mosquitoes the whole night =.= spent most of my time doing self-reflection.
that was seriously, the worse of me.

hope you'll feel better when you wake up...

honestly speaking

i don't know why i've been so pessimistic in my stuffs lately. its almost as though i can't do anything to motivate myself. at the end of the day, it all just boils down to me, whether i can make a difference or i want to make a difference in my life.

one thing never changes though.

still, i shall strive...i can't leave it be somehow.
many times i tried to drop it and forget you, at some point i will always look up and hey, it can't be that bad. then a few minuntes later, you just pop up again.
its still strong. thats what kept me going. and i will continue.

to be frank, i'm sick of my own attitude already.

tell me about it

how on earth do i live with a pyschotic sister going nuts.

its time i start a series about what goes on in my mind.

well if anybody wants to know, that was my first gig on the 23rd aug '08. haha

you're stuck on my mind.

had tennis today, still i suck =.= haha kw, V and jy came over for the game...it was both hot and humid, making all of us horribly uncomfortable. left the court after an hour..


went upstairs, did some thinking and reflection..calmed myself down again.
haha yeah it still hurts no matter how much i try to lie to all of you. but i'll be fine guys, dont worry (:



and i can never stop thinking about it for a moment.

i want you to smile again.

sleeplessness numbs the ache!

yeah it does. thanks for talking to me...i feel better (:

WHY

WHY.
WHY.
WHY.
WHY.
WHY.
WHY.
WHY.
WHY.
WHY.
WHY.
WHY.
WHY.
WHY.


please don't. please, for gawds sake...no please...dont....

i want you to care

everytime i look at the photos, my heart ache. from smth so loving, it came to this.
i went thru the chat histories.

im so insensitive.

where is the sun, that made me smile?

stupid photo. haha but thats how happy i am behind the set.
that was before.

i need to smile more...sigh.

it'll be an off day

soon, this coming wednesday. i guess the only thing i'll be looking forward too are morning shifts and off days. those are the only days i get more free time than usual.

and i owe the library some materials starting from today. didn't had time to return it...bother.
visiting the lawyer tomorrow. i HOPE things will be OK. dang it, i really hate coporate companies. zzz

gonna go air drum. cover for some digimon song ._. can't believe we're actually going to play that.

its green

i'm feeling like a ghoul this moment, everything seems so blur to me now.
heading of for my shift in about and hours time. everything is fine there, just not me i guess haha.
i really need my source of living. back.

hopefully, the sun will shine brighter today.