it happened again, you bitch. the 3rd time, in which you shamelessly admit it yourself.
how stupid can you get, 14 years of education, 22 years old already and in university.

sec sch, you left your handphone on the basin and entered the cubicle to do your business. you came out and to your horror, your handphone was stolen! wow, such a surprise! you actually expected someone be there polishing your handphone and hand it to you after you came out the cubicle? fat hope idiot.

2nd time, i don't know when it happened but since you said this was the 3rd time, i reckon there must be a 2nd time.
3rd time, you went to your friends house last night, came back without a handphone.

"aiyah, her pattern like that one lah. you know liao still go nag at her for what?"
not just mom, but even my aunt tells me that. should i just leave you alone while you do stupid things in the family? like switching the small insignificant lamp in the kitchen along with the main ceiling lights in the kitchen.

and and, leaving all the lights in the house on and went to blast your music in your room. you think this is a clubbing house?
sheesh, cant think of anything more to comment on this matter anymore.

holidays at home alone are such a bore. other than constant mugging, theres nothing else i can do much... gotta overcome my O levels first.

nowadays, my posts seem to be filled with words of anger and hate. and hell no i am not under stress. :D

here are the videos for yesterdays 7th Drum Exchange, ehhhh, enjoy =x
a lil bit noisy though. hahaha


and heres the guy doing some sambal grooves. i find it dam cool with that whistle thingy. haha!



and the double pedal madness.
i couldn't hear anything at all in this video, but it was dam fierce over there. 2 drumsets battling out on double pedals ...!!


ily (:

cousin yunxin's 21st birthday today . i took no photos...didn't want to be such a gay camwhore...ah well. lol cuzzy yinlong took a lot of photos though.

pretty much fun. the food. hahahaha and omfg DEXTER resembles yinlong so much in appearance O.O i mistook him for yinlong when i went into the clubhouse =____________=

alls pretty well. just feeling tired...need to work more on my drum grooves after going to the drum meet. videos will be up soon too though the sound quality would be...err >.>

and how cool is this? i got an ad from Clearisil! look! its up there !!!!

and the 2nd one, is over there! ------->

and the 3rd is, is below!

my tagboard is over there! ----------->

i seriously can't get enough of that mocca ad. i love it hahahaha.
maybe i should get Clerasil too ..... @.@

imy dumb! <3

and Trigun™ rocks . saw the preview. :DDDDDD


drummers wan sui.

i apologise for not blogging all this while.
been pretty busy with my mugging ...
first up, replying tags~

wanling: haha yeah i will....you too. :DDDD

YING : ily too dumb (:

ryan : haha feiz. this kind of thing, is nothing, compared to poly life i reckon...much less to say when entering in the workforce and many other things as these people start to really get into the community. they're pretty much blinded within the small boundaries of their lifestyle ...

flora : nvm la ...stupid magarine. haha you also...your own social circle is pretty much as complicated as mine ... :DDDD

Mr CcWj : yeah clement...i will...provided you peeps would be having one hahaha
aaaannnddddd, if linda wants me to go :x

xiaocarol : okok lols im trying very hard to focus now ...see ya after my O's. we need to do alot of catch up and practice. (:

minwei :i don't really wish to drag this anymore or whatsoever. as you can see, the tag was deleted. i will not allow conflicts or any unhappiness to occur on my blog, needless to say, as a platform to lecture others when they could only understand the situation to the extent of the post in which i blogged a few days ago. they have a right to tag and give positive/negative comments with regards to my posts. henceforth, i would strongly discourage you, as well as others, to reprimand ANYONE just because they don't know what really happened.

perhaps i was just overreacting, for i didn't really read that tag of yours but deleted it the moment i saw that 1 of it was directed against friends who have commented with regards to my post . no hard feelings mate.



ending note, this is my blog.
these are my daily thoughts defined as words here.
hope to blog more, but i doubt so. O's starting...

cheers all.
ily dumb <3

actually, i told myself that i won't blog about it while in school.
but yeah, if its something that others should know, i believe it should and it shall be that way .
to let people know that im such an attitude guy(to you, and some perhaps).

played chapteh, accidentally kicked in the wrong direction and it hit amandas face. ooo. i apologised. i was extremely apologetic. but you gave the wtf did you just do.
so ok, nvm.

recess, i went to apologise again but lo and behold, you cut me off and said "bu yao fan wo" in a most mean tone.
i get the message, its you with the attitude problem, not me.
if you read this or anyone from my class do, this is my fucking blog and i do what i want.
the last time it happened on minweis blog, this time it is my blog.
you can't accept what i blogged here, get the fuck out.

i don't really care if some of you are gonna anti me, fine .
i'd say, GO AHEAD. i don't care bout 5C anymore. except for the minority who still chat with me , i really appreciate you people for being so tolerant of my behaviour sometimes,
and i know i speak in a very different manner, say, my accent, but you don't have to harp on it.
i don't really fancy the way people criticize that im trying to act english like.

BUT THIS IS ME. i can be silent at times, i can be mad at times and i can be like an ogre if i want to.

so stfu and wear a mask if you can't keep your emotions under control.


and for gawds sake, don't bring your personal matters and emotions out of your comfy home when its got nothing to do with us and unleash it upon US.

you might as well stay cooped up in bed with your bedroom slippers and yawn like a prat.

remedials in the morning at 9. couldn't wake up though. haha


ah gongs birthday at night. someone seems to have grown prettier ehs... O.O
but like what cousin yun xin said, shes too young for me.
ah fgs. i was just trying to say shes an eye candy...not like im gonna do anything. =.=
linda linda linda <3 haven't been meeting you for a long time. im missing you as always (:

something happened in S.O.F.T today.
ignorance is bliss.
but this is simply too entertaining to ignore...seeing him trying his pitiful attempts to insult and depress others...

From: paulgilbertsuckssucks
To: xenOgenesis(me)

Posted: Sun Sep 23, 2007 2:13 am (the forums date and time is wrong. the message was sent around Sept 12.25am Sunday. )

Subject: hey sorry

you are such a loser , i saw you blog hahah ah lian boy hahaha . gay gay gay gay gay . act cute lorxx . what is your major malfunction ah idiot . you think you are coolzz , did i spell that right haha i hope you band fails cause you probably suck at whatever you play BAND LEADER haha band leader



from some of his postings, he revealed that hes a poly student...having his holidays...nothing to do...lazy to get a job...and wow, he even bothered himself to dig out every thread he could find and flame it.

wonderful job. im sure you'll have a bright future being a janitor for the rest of your life.
i know you've found my blog already as the URL is indicated in my signature. =O

happy reading. haha

night study today again. EXTREMELY tired. 30 min at the library, couldn't take it anymore. told wanling that im off to take a rest.

went to class, sat down and smacked my head on the table. immediately, i fell asleep. O.O
by the time i woke up, it was dark already...can't see anything at all...groped my way to the switch panels and offed the fan ...then proceeded back to the library. my whole body was numb...probably due to the bad sleeping posture.

haven't been msging linda these few days =\
sorry baby. >.<
managed to find the mini lamp which my dad bought from IKEA earlier this year.
decided to experiment with a different light bulb...hmmm
by the way, this one was actually a spare for the ceiling lights back at my old home. its freaking old..with no power saving thing thing and and..it generates a hell lot of heat and light..

even though it blinded my room (and me) with its brightness, i wasn't really fond of it. if its used outdoors, say a camping trip or where ever it is, it'll be good.
but for indoors, i prefer a better atmosphere and feel.
something...something...
something like this.
compare both, this one is dimmer. can't really tell it from the photo cos i was using my phone camera to snap it....
heres how the bulb look like...
i don't even know if it should be called a light bulb =.= it looks so high tech.
look at the insides. @.@
and then you look at this

=.= A Walk with Light Bulbs.

a couple more weeks to my O's.
just joined Nuffnang...hope i get enough viewerships to get and ad :DD
thanks all for the tags.

school went on pretty fine. drew some of my ™ drawings. one of them is shown at the top of my blog :DDD
went through a few modifications...i swear it looks nicer now.

was in school the WHOLE day till 8.30pm. kinda busy ...a lil bit of squabble between yaoming and me in class...but heck. I was just too sensitive perhaps. sorry ming (:
after school, went for physics practical remedial and shot off to chinese class. i failed my chinese =(
have to retake...again ... 3rd time already. ahh gosh.
wanling tutored me for self study till 8.30. thanks girl.
:DDDDD




something happened while wanling and chiulian(er, lol) was off to the toilet...
i forgot the earphones weren't my silencer earphones...and blasted my music...got scolded by mrs yong.
everyone in the library apparently turned and look at me, ITS FREAKING HUMILIATING. AHHHHH.


went home with wanling and chiulian afterwards. certainly hope it was a productive day...well it better be...haha
heres the one i drew ytd. LOL.
hahaha. got the idea while i was in deep thought...i remembered once, the comment made by feiz...bout the blood frenzy thing thing in dota...haha. i drew the simple one at first...then thought it looked too plain...went on to draw smth...tried to make it more "dramatic" and big in a sense...


and heres the other one i drew earlier today. hahahahaha
X DURIAN..!
its trademarked with my signature. lol
cheers all! (:

and i really hate people speaking in twits. proper english, don't want to use. go learn some stupid fucking alien language. sigh .

not in a good mood. i really wish i have the ability to manipulate peoples mind.

14th September, o7 Friday
went cycling with my mates. fun, tiring =.=
my legs were aching from the uphill cycling and such.
was slower than them... >.>
hahaha
im getting weaker and weaker...need to exercise more...
not like there wasn't any photos...but none were good.
actually,there IS one...and
its a camwhore =x


15th September, o7 Saturday

sis and ananda being solemnized for marriage. the ceremony was held at the Cheng Beng Buddhist Society...to be honest, its pretty rare for a wedding to be held at a temple...i mean so far, its the 2nd buddhist wedding i've ever attended.
first were my dharma teachers, now its my very own sister ;D
check it out.

first, a camwhore =x


i apologise but i have a very bad habit of tilting my camera whenever i take a photo...trying to get rid of that habit.

roamed around the temple. much has changed since my last visit...the whole temple was well renovated. hell, they even have an exhibition on the different Bodhisattvas and idols :O


and this is their Ci Su Xuan, a vegetarian restaurant. its basically a buffet type of serving, offering various kinds of vegetarian foods prepared by a chef (im not sure bout that though. didn't ask dad about it).

and the exhibitions on display...
this is just the small part of it. the 1st floor isn't big, neither is it small...
but check this out. not much of a surprise but look !

any idea which bodhisattva this is?
read this then ;D
yep, its the Manjusri Bodhisattva which my school adopted as their "role model" and some sort of value thingy thingy...i don't know how to put it but heck. haha.
there were 3 other Manjusri idols there too...
both made from different eras, dynasties and different models.
models...what the hell am i saying..lol
im lazy to write more so i'll just post the photos with captions.
welcoming of guests...
they seem to be nervous. lol

welcome the bride and groom ....!!!
can't get a clear shot. had to decrease the resolution to zoom in....hence the small size =\
thats about all.
cheers all~

<3>

the feelings were kind of weird. not in the awkward sense, just that, i feel empty...only with thoughts of linda. just her. shes my only happiness now...my only support.

i humbly confess that i'm in a very weak state, opening up my feelings and thoughts to people around. school, outside and at home. its the first time after bottling up and being oblivious of my jackass attitude. people can't stand my arrogant and naiveness .

but linda did. as well as others. my gf, my exes, my friends and my family. i love them all.
to all my ex-gf, i apologize if i've been a bastard all these years. but the past is the past. we all learn from mistakes. please, if you have any regrets, forget them. drop it if it doesn't exist anymore since theres no way history will ever repeat.

im trying to change...trying very hard to .

ok so for today. woke up...pretty early. dad wanted to bring me for breakfast.
went to the coffee shop near my school to eat fishball noodles. i swear, the Zhu You Zha IS DAM BIG. the first one i ate was bigger then the 2nd i ate.
this is the 2nd one,
school was pretty good. improved in my results, but more effort needs to be put in.
;D thats all for today.



<3>
i will mug hard.
you mug hard too (:

and my pride is so gone. so, so, so gone.

i hate losing out. and i hate being humiliated.
so i guess this is the end. goodbye, my friend.

what was posted, will be posted...
i had to delete the comments. i was just too uncomfortable with it.
i admit im trying to create this image that im always right about everything.

lets just say, i took a buddy for granted. maybe not that long.
you reminded me of my old time friend of 4 years. we quarrelled and went thru much but we were the best of friends.

maybe its because i thought after going through times of difficulties and going out together, seeing that you were the one who actually bonded me with the rest of the stompers, i visualized a bond.
that may have made me create a false image that, you were able to take all my cruel jokes and such.

im not perfect, not as perfect and a good guy like i always thought i was to be.

nothing has happened between me and my girlfriend. we're doing fine. i love her to bits.

this is about my band. NextGeneration™

it all started out as a normal forum thread. Ash intended to organise a jamming session, book a studio and just have fun. Ash dropped it in a few weeks time, giving the excuse that he had financial difficulties.
sadisticnoob and nicholasimz took up the project and pushed it forward. we got the moderators attention, and they tried to contact the ones in charge but the 2 of them did not make an effort to.
why?
plain laziness.

awhile later, joey told me all about it and i decided to contact them and was glad to know that, we're invited to perform in one of their events. after that, i took over the whole project. getting members of the forum to go for a 1 day 2 hour trial. progress was slow but pretty good..
in the end, i was made the backup vocalist cos i wasn't as good as kingpounder in drums at that point of time.
after much persevering and much effort put in, we made it.

needless to say, after everything, we tried to get together once more.
i replaced kingpounder as the drummer. Firethorn, our professional guitarist was uninterested in jrock songs, much less to say, going into visual kei.
it was left with Carol, Ash and me. we were still looking for 2 other guitarist.
first came kesh, then nelson.
after that, we had our usual sessions with nelson as the single guitarist most of the time and carol doing the vocals while Ash was doing the bass.

and then, i recieved a phone call from him asking me to go down on friday, to teach his drummer , DRUMS.
his drummer, is from the lion dance. and he plays, the lion dance drum.
hes interested in drums, so he joined Ash, Sebastian, Kesh and another girl whos going to be his vocalist.

cool, im left out. hello, you have a drummer on standby here. what am i, invisible to you? oh, i am being so BHB. i want to be in your band. but lo and behold, you got a friend whos into goth fashion(just because of that) to be your drummer and he knew nothing about drums.

so you say, hes going for drum lesson eh .
you intend to play at the EOY event, Cassis, Nausea and Shudder(lol?), Baretta(LOL?!)
cool, maybe you can get some lion dance costumes too. it'll help a lot.
might give a lil bit of a lion dance feel in the drums.

you left the band just like that, after ALL OUR EFFORTS to pull everything together.
you're gonna say, "what effort? like you got put in any effort at all" why? all you did was to get your friends to trial for guitarist positions. im happy and i appreciated that.
and you're now going to abandon us all, have you spared a thought for carol who knew nothing till i told her about it?

just because that GUY is your friend, you got him as your so called drummer who doesn't even know a simple 4/4 beat.
you expect him to play those 3 songs by the end of this year, what do you think this is? last minute extreme makeover?

as the band leader, i AM emotionally affected. you left carol and me behind just so you can join your friends JUST because they're more into goth fashion.

oh gosh. im just plain jealous and feeling left out after all.