SOMETHING FISHY.

and the interesting part is, he wasn't removed even after so much publicity of his rude personality.
jason told me that the previous crew left the team because they couldn't stand the old man (whom i originally thought to be very nice. ) seriously, the whole organization can go nuts for all i care. won't be going back there anymore, not even a peek. haha

girl, just ignore the whole thing and don't reply back or shoot them back. its pointless.

just returned from the funeral parlour. bathed, prepped and going back there to jaga the place while my cousin sleeps beside his father.

the rest of this post are for those who are willing to read and know my family matters.

its extremely sudden. one minute he was talking and chatting and laughing with my dad, the next minute, hes gone. nothing can be compared to the grief of my dad and his beloved brothers family.

they had been working together even before i was born, started off a private company and going rich during that period of time. for more than 30 years.

years passed, economic times were bad. everyone was having financial problems. my dad and his brother held fast and pulled thru, even now, we're all struggling.
whenever my dad went overseas for matters concerning the buddhist society, my uncle would single-handedly manage the company himself, holding on till my dad returns.

he felt pains in his chest and phoned my dad. i think he had been suffering from that pain already, even before my dad came back, but he just pushed it aside. went to the hospital, the doc told not to move and wheeled him into the operating theatre. diagnoised 3 blocked arteries from the heart.

cleared one, 2 more left. before his third operation, my dad and i visited him to keep him company. we laughed, talked, joked and held hands. it was reassuring to see him still in good spirits.

a few days later, he went into a coma after the 2nd operation. and days later, he passed away.
leaving behind a wife, son and daughter.


and a great brother/father, my dad.


dad told me 5th uncle was a good husband, good father and a good brother to him. he never complained, never gave up and grew up with my dad. seeing him everyday at the office, solving problems and getting businesses together.

and now its just my dad. i slept in uncles office this morning, after a night without sleep, jaga-ing the funeral parlour while cousin weijie slept. felt a soft and gentle caress while i was half asleep.

it is sad. and i cry again.

too much grammar and vocab mistakes. gotta rush for time. ciaos.

thanks to my family and relatives for keeping together as one even in times of sadness.

the UBPKL gang, mentors and friends from SBM for keeping me company the night before the funeral. you guys cheered me up, even though most of you didn't know of my uncles demise.

and also to my girlfriend. i know you're very worried bout me, and people have been telling stories behind my back. you stood by me when everyone was against me, and you stood by me when i'm at my darkest hour. thanks for all the love you've showered me. i love you.


V said my character is one of those who hides sadness and displays happiness on the outside.
hmmm, i thought that sort of person is supposed to be you? LOL cheers mate, you are strong on the inside and out. you stayed happy for all of us even though you had a sad story going on.
for that, i admire you and i'm sure the rest of the PKL gang do. salutes~

and hes gone, forever.

i think i was not destined to post what i intended to post before.

shall let nature take its course then.

its the first time i've seen my dad cried so much. my uncle is in hospital. i don't know when he will be waking up. i'm worried. worried for my dad, worried for my uncle. they've been together for so long, seeing each other everyday, working with each other everyday.

3 days, the doctor said 3 days.
do God really exist? don't give me bullshit about "its Gods plan that he has to go" or "God doesn't have to help you to prove he exists"

i believed and i prayed once but it didn't happen. nothing ever did. if you truly exist, show me you do.

i'm suffering, everyone is. and i pray.

HAPPY.

happy anniversary, happy anniversary, happy anniversary to us~


tired from trying to install ms office. till now, no luck =.=
loving you loads :D

me: chewing on sausage, horizontally

kh: stares with suspicious look

me: what?

kh: nothing (uhm chio)

me: you jealous i'm more experienced than you is it?


LOL. like i visit changi everyday.

SCAMS.

my friendster is dead, like totally. 64 views for the month and no photos updated...my profile is growing fungi and i can't be bothered to update or change anything.

still waiting for the next DXS meetup. dam~

FOOD TASTING. and urgh.

went to raffles city for food tasting for sisters wedding dinner.

its all vegetarian. :O

even the imitation sharks fin soup was full of vegetables and mushrooms. i don't mind if its vegetarian but i can't stand when its filled with veges and those stuffs. oh well, shan't be picky. lucky to have food to eat anyway.

the staff there were extremely courteous and polite. commendable...or could it be the "customer is always right" ? >:D

the whole thing was held at clark room, i kinda find the way they name their function rooms weird. can't really remember...but a vague ORD ...saturn...no wait, thats mapex saturn drum series i was thinking about. err, lol.

and yes, my elder sisters name is Xiao Wei.

virtual flowers for you, my girlfriend (:

i think thats all for today. i had a power nap of 2 hours in which boss and nest were nice enough to not disturb me. thanks boss, and i apologise for my unreasonable attitude towards you a few days back.

nest, thanks for doing my work while i was snoring away on the chair. haha
junlong msged me this afternoon that work at music labs, is only once a month for sundays.


dam. its better than nothing anyway :D

didn't sleep the whole night. watched The DaVinci Code. it was awesome...the awe of history and mystery, totally love it~

i guess what brings the both of us together, would be music. our similarities and our understanding to the art. not seeing you everyday doesn't strain my heart, in fact absence, is the essence of faith and trust between us.

perhaps it might sound stupid to all of you, but it does strike a deep meaning to me. matter and humans, 2 different things.

if matter doesn't fall, it weakens.

if humans don't fall, it strengthens.

think what you like bout me, for those who hate me. i live my life, i know the friends and people who are genuinely pleasant at my presence, and those who are not. if you can behave in a way that i think you are a friend to me, i may or i can, do the same to you as well.

its 5.36am right now. dad scared the living shits out of me while i was watching the movie by suddenly appearing beside me asking me why i was still awake. i had my earphones so i wasn't able to hear anything from the outside.

and his shadow sort of zoomed from my front and i got startled by him from the back.
like this:

\O.O/

those 2 strokes represent my arms. serious, i did had that reaction. =_________=
i wish blogger had GillSans Bold and MS Gothic fonts. it'll make things look much classier....

random thoughts, being kept awake cos i can't stop thinking of my girlfriend.

...

am i being too mushy? =\

i managed to capture a shot of these beautiful clouds as i passed by circuit road after dinner with my parents.

so anyway, grandmothers birthday 2 days ago. wasn't able to blog bout it yesterday cos i was out with my girlfriend the whole day, and i was pretty busy today as well...had to attend a drum clinic in the evening..



dam, Dom Famularo is impressive. the thing that seperates him from other professional drummers is that he plays with feeling. reminds me of Yoshiki of X Japan. but other than that, he motivates and inspires me deeply. truly, i am humbled just by his words and personality.

this is the second drum clinic i've attended. the first was some christian drummer which i forgot his name. err, lol.

i'm lazy to caption the photos but, i'll start with 2 very adorable photos of my aunt and uncle.

cheese to the camera.

CHEESE TO ME.

i'm a bad photographer. all i did was to photoshop to enhance the photos. hahaha


unhappiness? yeah, its all me. i've done you too much wrong to apologise, so go farm your new life and don't bother me.


i'll be working at the Music Labs Studios! sundays only. hahaha. cool~ first working experience in a studio. wow wow wee wow.

i got my enlistment letter for national service yesterday. dad was like all smiles when he stepped out of the car to hand me the mail. hmm~

tored open the letter and saw:

POLICE ACADEMY


i'm like darn surprised and happy at the same time LOL. surprised as to why i got chosen (nest says its random, and its luck that i got it, cos i have the ba gua!) happy is that, i won't have to go all the way to tekong.

i love singapore.
i love my home.
i can be with my family, i can be with my girlfriend (:
i want to be trained to defend IN the country, not some other island...well thats just me...


i rid my unhappiness with drums. saw my nuffnang tracker. why are you still reading my blog?

pictures for grandmas birthday on a later post.

by the way, i've been receiving this sms from loads of people, even numbers i don't even know, regarding a certain patient in need of blood type AB+ (thats is a rare blood type). name of the contact person is Caili, 97838531
the patient is contracted with leukemia. requires 15 packs of that blood, 3 donors have been found so far.

i'm a blood donor myself, but my blood type is A+ so it won't be of much use to him. heres an emergency call out and notice to all, help spread the word. whether its real or not, i don't know but i'm not taking chances. save lives dammit~

captured this shot while we were "preparing" to leave ecp after most of the group left for home. but we didn't. kaiwen, vicky and me sat down and had a chat with yinhongs mother. pleasant, she shared with us her life experiences and what the morales in life which she believes in and to quite a large extent, i agree :D haha

found this photo from zhenglins phone. this was the amount of damage done to us during the beach cleanup ~ sank into the quicksand. saved by the UBB. as usual, i look dumb. and yeah, moms right. long hair doesn't suit me.

did i mention i got a haircut today? i don't look like whats in this photo now ~

liangjian, me, vicky, nest, anghwee, zhenglin


babygirl, i want to be your mountain, your bridge, your punching bag or your pillow. don't be sad, for i'll be there. tell me now and i'll be there,
call me now and i'll be there,
sms me now and i'll be there 5 minutes later cos i always reply later than usual. :D
cheer up alright? you may be angry over some stuffs right now, but take a step back and think deep.
its just not worth expending your energy getting angry over such minor stuffs.
i love you. you are all that matters, to me (:


i realised i can't really compare the past sad stories of others to my own past. what are mine compared to utter 101% true love? when all i was, but a childish and immature student living in his own twisted dreams.


things are different now. wooo~ UBB!

nothing is ever FREE.

a musicians love~
something which we both know and understand (:

as the title says, nothing comes without a price. i was just updating my avg and i found out that, AVG Free Anti-Virus is going commercial. what used to be free and supported thru donations (in which i believed was far more capable compared to sucky norton) is becoming norton itself =O

everything we do, comes with consequences. same thing that works for karma.

my girlfriend isn't feeling well, while talking on the phone. seems like shes having a headache. darn =( let me know next time if you arn't ok? and you're right... i am worried and i'll tell you to go rest =x loves <3

went for deliveries today. uncle is in hospital for blocked blood vessels or smth...so his workload in the company is handed over to pa...which i know is very stressfull and hard to manage 2 work positions at once. i'd be glad to render my assistance if i can...i don't want him to overwork himself again. delivery tomorrow again. hope boss will tolerate this.

hugs and kisses (:

i've been getting agitated easily nowadays. trying to tolerate and hold it in, isn't my flair in life.
and now the thing that tickles my anger.

why bother switching on your msn when you don't even use it?! when people want to contact you, you made them wait 15 min just for one pathethic reply of yours. sigh.

i'm just blowing this small thing up. chill. chill. chill. its nothing big.
i'm just making this personal. which i shouldn't.





TAO KAE NOI.

currently at suntec mac's McCafe, leeching the wireless.
bought a dollar coke and one mochacinno (or whatever its called). coke for my weekly sugar intake, mocha coffee so i won't fall sleep at the pc show afterwards... hmm

the night before, i took care to maintain my body fluids and prepared myself for the blood donation that was scheduled today. meditated for bout 10 min before drinking new moon.


other than that, i drank loads of water...wouldn't want a 2nd nauseous experience anymore... =\

overall, 4 people went for blood donation today. chernsing, yinghui, kaiwen and me.
yinghui didn't pass the blood density test...sadded D:
cs was a lil nervous though. haha and kaiwen was experiencing some problems "donating" his blood, seems like his blood flow was very slow. haha






overall, the 2nd experience wasn't that bad as compared to the first. the first time i step into the room, i was hyperventilating all over. argh =\ embarrassing.

so yeah, i'm sitting down here, kaiwens at his hotel snoring away, nest is busy and can only meet me after 1pm, vicky is asleep and i'm here to rant.

and anyway, i saved 3 lives. have you? c'mon, start donating your blood. earn some good karma!

miss my girlfriend loads <3

managed to get my hands on this photo during the vesak at sbm. was cleaning up the place after the event ended.

this was us, the temporary garbage collectors. hahaha~

got back from camp last night after finishing the nightgame. i suppose everyone must be tired out by now. the nightgame was easy, as compared to last year. since this is just an internal camp, i wasn't expecting much of an epic planning. but at least i've fulfilled my wish of seeing someone ever since the last time.

anyway, here to introduce our new work supervisor, king Gong.

king Gong supervising nest during work

but a few days later, our faith in the supervisor started plummeting...serious doubts in his integrity.

the very obvious suspect as to why the snackbox was empty.

slacking while we're working like shit~

so, we decided to just ignore him and wait for chlorine to return to discipline him.

melv bought this japanese snack...looks like a biscuit, but its a soft spongy cake...one box of a dozed costs 8 bucks (??!)


this post was due to boredom.

miss my girlfriend loads. <3

so vick and i went to nesty hse to stayover, just in case we won't be able to wake up for the beach cleaning the day after. rushed home, decided to take a quick bath and rushed off for bus 80. i didn't know it'll still run till 1am in the mrning @.@

reached his house and i played a little of doom3 while they played with the horror flash game, sinthai hse. dam funny LOL (as in the one who played the game.)

coming to the beach cleaning, i ran into quicksand and sunk up to knee level. i guessed i sunk that deep cos i was trying to lift myself up and end up pushing my other leg deeper into the quick sand. my pants was tainted with the grey paste that was caused by plastic litter buried in the sand as explained by ven. mun cheng. some will think its oil spills but..after digging out the plastic wrappers and such (which by majority, dominates the beach in terms of litter by 99%) the entire piece of plastic bag was black in color. and we saw dying fishes and other marine life, hanging on for dear life in the black colored shallow waters. sad sight...


nest pants was worse, along with vicky. lol went to nest hse for a cleanup and headed down to SBM after that.

bought GO! on the way, very nice. though it the first sip tasted like milo that was kept in the fridge for 2 days.
go try one, seriously.


thanks girl, for staying by my side :D


PS: i'm lazy to check for any vocab or gramm errors. hmm i think all my previous posts were filled with many english errors. LOL.

currently at shanyou...sent pa and ma off already. they'll be coming back in a week...hope they'll be safe and sound.

went for nicksimz so-called jamming session yesterday...its a good thing we had ash there..and kesh came afterwards. if not, we had to endure his tonedeaf singing. not that we're trying to be mean, he has to know his limits. yeah, so what if he couldn't sing? at least hes trying his best. but someones gotta lecture him on good planning and band management. who the hell would switch songs a day before a jamming session? at least think of the playing abilities of your band mates before you choose a song.

2ndly, if you're going to organise a session at a studio, first thing you got to do is book the studio yourself, not getting someone else to do it for you. well anyway, some guy thought we were being mean to him. yea we were...but it was done deliberately in a sense to mess the whole thing up and to wake up his idea of trying to be a delinquent by skipping school. seriously, he needs a slap.


i think the 3 of us do too =x

so previously, we had a jumble sale in which the amount we raised went past the target we set for ourselves. needless to say, it was a great achievement...haha
thanks to my gf, i had a shoulder to rest on when i was tired in the morning cos the day before, i had a jamming session that was from 11pm to 2am. everything went well, cept that all of us were dead tired.

the rest went home after the jamming. neo dissapeared after that =.= the only ones left were melvin, alvin and me (i kinda forgot the other doods name. sorry =\ ) headed off to the mac near mos. my, it was packed with people. chio bu galore~

but i only have eyes for my girlfriend...sooooo....... :DDD
no i didn't took any photos so don't ask me. besides, i looked dam shagged and unkempt till i hid myself in a corner.

slacked till 4am, walked out of the mac and took a cab home. wasn't able to tahan anymore...thanks to the cabbie unker..drove dam fast and chatted with me also. hehe buddha bless him. reached home and slept till 6am when my mom splashed water on my face to wake me up...so in all, only had an hour of sleep. argh. bathed and decided to go without blowing dry my hair...dad fetched me to shanyou and when i was there, tried to work around but, =\ too tired and i was like a zombie crawling around.

too much stuffs to talk about already. i'm lazy. ahhhh.
and here i am, blogging blah blah blah.

i seriously mistook maddox for an old fart. visited the wrong website for the past 5 months. dam.

i'm at SBM, just finished watching blassreiter when dear messaged me. thanks dear, for accompanying me the whole day yesterday to help out at the jumble sale.

the whole event could be said to be a success, though we still have many items left untouched. i guess one day of sale isn't enough. haha

kavvy and V are playing COD4 while i'm still feeling abit sleepy. dam, slept for so long and i'm still sleepy? something must be wrong with me.

the training room (which was supposedly to be our so called office) was to be used for food rationing for the needy families. hence, we had to move into the conference room and it was extremely cosy and comfortable :D


think i'll go take a nap. *yawns*