I can't see thru the shades

I think its pretty amazing. I think you're amazing.

I'm done with helping my dad on deliveries for the afternoon. Got back from night shift before that.

Saturday bbq! @ my place. For SBM people. Booked the pit, up next on the list would be food and budget. Let's get started.

just another day in the wastes

I woke up feeling like shit today. For the past few days, actually. This made me realise how lazy I've become that I've neglected my daily exercises, seems like I'm in no position to nag @ you eh, girl?

Have to start off somewhere...maybe later...@ work...when theres nothing to do...
oh yeah. My drumpad.

Sheldon is totally lovable.

It doesn't matter if its a full moon or a crescent moon. It is still a bloody moon.

And when I got back and saw my beloved wall, the first thing I did was to stare at it.

That wall is what I call, a reflection wall.  

The Wall.

I gave myself 10 minutes (using the alarm on my phone in case I doze off), closed my eyes and visualised what happened around me.

 This 'practice' is pretty useful. Its like having a personal pensieve from Harry Potter's story. Get my drift? You review the day's events, see what went wrong, what should have been done or what not to.

Although the day itself would have concluded by then, it never hurts to think through and see how you can improve future situations or happenings.

drooping eyes, picking his nose & slouched back. Its my idol, Gintoki.

This blog needs to be less colourful. My personal opinion.

O.K so lately I have not been having much spare time to myself. Other than SBM commitments, I had my band stuffs to cope with as well. Songs, rehearsals and discussions.
I suppose the thing that really saps up my time & energy was the practice part.
I believe practice is equivalent to perfection, & I want the grooves I dish out, to be perfect as well.

My current personal life short, lets talk about what I went through before 2009. Its time to do a reflection.
Breezed through my BPT for 5 months, 2008 & 2009. Physical & law training. Scenario based tests, all ok.
I can still remember how I hated the Academy to the core for its boredom, mundane, effed up atmosphere & food. But after graduating from that place, I'm starting to miss the training days and company I had during that period of time.
True, it is nothing like the army, but NSPF sure is 2 years of unique experience other than warfare.

Next, auditions. Juggling NS & my band commitments. I guess I neglected SBM for quite sometime. So yeah, nothing much really happened for 2009 (leaving out the sad parts, of course.)
Met my gf in october...end of story.
The people around me may have changed, but not me. Yet.
I suppose I can tell myself daily, "Yeah, tomorrow will be a different me" & the following day, I'm back to my old self.

Was I too nice to people? Was I insensitive to the atmosphere around me all the time?
Was I too stupid to realise that I was stupid to begin with?

I just got to find out. Man, this is stupid.

a pencil is the best weapon against...

People take politeness for granted. Well, screw it.

my fila shoe bag!

Maybe it wasn't right, but there were way too many memories left there.

Ok, here & there.
I'll remember both the good & bad ones for the sake of faith and respect.
So I just got back and its a drag & shag.  Time check is 1146am so I can't possibly nap now. Gotta wait for lunch.

The whole house went under a revamp & its a hell lot better. Except for my room privacy. I really do need curtains.
Baby's having a little bit of fever the day before. Hope you'll feel better today (:

& li jia, get well soon. chick pox is a one time thing but anyway, hope you'll recover soon!

3 hours to work. Swell.

So do we start off from where we are or were we supposed to have done so long before there was a need to mention this?

Another question in my mind. It seems we simple beings can never run out of ideas to question the mortal realm. Truth? Well, does it even exist in the first place. With the exception of science, wasn't Truth (or facts) what it was till something else overlaps it?

What is right & what is wrong, it is judged by the majority. Deep thoughts, we can all keep denying, arguing, squabbling and picking on each other for the very little faults and errors we discover in our everyday lives and there will be no end to it.

Love prevails. It is unique. Everyone has it. Reject it and you will find a black door leading to a closed space of emptiness. Start loving everyone around you before you lose them.
Treasure whatever is there. Savour the moment.


Once we have finished walking this path of humanity, we'll look back and laugh at ourselves instead. Yep, we will.

Powerful & with impact.

Dam, I wish I have her strokes.

its unlimited

I often felt the need to stress things up myself. Not to mention the extra effort to tame the situation at the end of the day. Still, somethings are worth the blood and sweat put into them.

There are at point of times, when I stop and think if what I'm doing, is rational and right. We don't follow what we're told to do blindly all the time. Neither should anyone. Question it, if its questionable. By chance, they could be laughing at you instead.

The world is big, people from all walks of life. You and I are part of them.
How well do you define yourself from the rest of the pack?

a ball can kill

And I'm back from work. My leg hurts big time. Argh.

the final conclusion

After much thinking, I think I shall give it a 100% heck.

Simply to say, I completely do not care anymore. Except for my mates.

why make it so complicated?

And so somethings need to be talked over with, discussed. Get over it.

From now on, I'm on bo chap mode. Don't care, don't bother and can't be bothered.

Its not like I didn't notice, could have just told me and I would have amend it. Geez.