Palms out-stretched

I won't consider the past few days to be norm. Or even for the past 2 months as well. Much happenings and much shit has gone past me. This time, this time. It is either me, myself or none at all.

Quotes from people all around me, I used to ignore them and view them as merely a bunch of words stringed together. However, those quotes may fit certain events that took place for both 2009 and this year, 2010.

For me to know, no one else to know. I need to sit down and relax, think. What have I missed out. What did I do. I need a boost. I cannot stop here.  I must go on. But what drives me?

I'm still searching, for that fill. For now, I rest my case. This is not the end, yet.

We have ten fingers and two hands. A mind to control everything.
We have 24 hours a day only. We can't have 25 hours or more for a day.

But,
we have all the time till our place in this realm expires.

Do we have enough time to accomplish what we've set out to do? Maybe not.
Do we have time to accomplish what we've set out to do with our best efforts? Of course.

Yet to see but knowing you to be in the arms of another man, knowing that you're being comforted by another man. Knowing that you are loving another and being loved. As long as you are happy, I am fine with it. My emotions, I will contain it. May you be blessed and last long with him. <3

My heart is still beating.

anatomy of living

This isn't a good year. Nope, it isn't.

I wish my brain has a map, to tell me where my heart should go.

I am staring, at the moon. At the balcony.

There were so many instances in my life, where a situation so similar as this, came into being. I got over all, with ease, now that I look back at my life.
Things weren't so simple.

At times, I stopped to wonder. Was this how they felt when I treated them this way? It is like tasting my own evil medicine, this black taint of evil. Of emotional attachment.

Buddhism teaches us to rid ourselves of all human attachments, to bring joy and happiness to all with our compassion and loving kindness. May this be the last hurdle that I have to jump over. Whether if I succeed or not, I seriously do not know.

All I know is, people have been telling me as long as the one you love is happy, it is all that matters. Sometimes, I do feel that way. But when I'm alone, I tend to think and no, my mind doesn't go that way. I've been making empty promises to myself that I will change. Change for the better, to brighten up my future endeavors.

Many times I cried at my own failures. As a man, I should not cry. But I still did. I am a wuss. I should stand up and tell this world, "FUCK YOU. I AM STRONG AND I WILL TIDE OVER THIS."

For now, I am numb and neutral. But I know, there will be times when I reminisce and think of the happy times, I will break down. How things were different before but no. I should not harp on the past and look towards the future. After all, this is not the end. My end is not here, it is somewhere else. I tell myself, I've been a dork all these while and I will strive, to achieve.

I will strive.
This is Pearson, this is my blog and this is my life.
I am by the surname of Wu and I will make a difference within myself.
I must change. I must and I will.
Fall, I must not. Stand, I will.

I can't stop laughing at this issue with a tissue.

On a side note, am I really turning evil?

Hate me, detest me.

Some Oil For You

O.K so I am finally back.

The nights when I was alone had been torturing. The times when people fucked me upside for being such a wuss. You guys were right.

And I'm proud to declare: I've given up on the sticks. Once again.
It is a poor excuse, to rely on such temporary pleasures just to feel at ease.

At the end of the day, peace is found within ones own judgement and mindset.
My mind is set and I shall wait for the day.

Good luck and study hard.

Full water bottle

I think I need to rethink everything. Someone really has to put a stop to this.

Been so long

its good to see you again (:

When you're still hoping...and hoping...and wishing.

Man, I can't sleep again.

when your mom asks you to finish up your food, better finish it up or the food will turn bad and the next thing you know, your dad will nag at you.

So I was thinking, my service ends in a few months time.
Not only me, Ernest and I will be ending our 2 years of national service on the month of September.


Whats next? Footman is heading off for NTU and while I tend to give excuses that I don't wish to talk about it, the truth is I have already made up my mind. Be it a straight road to stability or a dead end, I am going to finish walking it. How long will I have to walk? I have no idea. No one can predict the events that will take place in the future, fortunate or unfortunate.


Live life to the fullest, thats what they say. Its a common phrase among people.
On many occasions, I was always oblivious to the many things around me. What I've said, my actions and down to every little thing that I've done.


I should take some time off. I should do some self-reflection. I should avoid everything, for now.


My knowledge in English is minimal and I do not wish to embarrass myself any further.


Once again, this space shall be neglected for some time.


Sorry people. I'm sorry. But I hope, that I'll be a much pleasant friend to all of you, when I'm back.


Till then, see you when I see you.


Goodbye, World.

Say Anything

Only my heart's pounding, stab my heart. The silent vision of love.
Forget the time, as the cry travels. Walking through wet Tokyo, feelings make my heart rush.

Run away from reality, I've been crying in a dream.
Frozen time makes me shiver.
Building up my tainted memories, until my sadness vanishes.

You say anything, the fitting word that blesses,
Say anything to my lying heart
If I can't go back to where I have been, I'll live only in dreams,
Getting wet in the endless rain.
Colour my running tears within my daydreams.
You say anything, whatever you'd like to say to me.
Say anything, you leave me out of my eyes.
You say anything, all I can hear is a voice from within my dream.
Say Anything, you can dry my every tear.

The lights have gone out on the stage, staring lonely, embraced by the days that have gone past.
Destroying everything, including our sacred love,
Until it vanishes in the sands of time.
You say anything, whatever you'd like to say to me.

Repeat *

Close your eyes and I'll kill you in the rain.
If a beautiful murder is fitting, the artificial rose is buried,
Shedding in the memory of a poet.

Time to change my life, but my heart remains the same to you,
Time to change your heart, my love for you never changes.

You say anything, the fitting word that blesses,
But say anything to the heart that can't break.
You say anything, say anything, now you've gone away, where can I go from here?

Say anything ... say anything...

I believe if time passes. ..
everything turns into beauty, if the rain stops,
 tears clean the scars of memory away ... 
everything starts wearing fresh colours ... 
every sound begins playing a heartfelt melody ..
jealousy embellishes a page of epic, 
desire is embracing a dream, 
but my mind is still in chaos and...

Pink And Green, memories not to be forgotten.

Think I'm going to vacate this space for...I don't know till when.

Bye Bye.

Gotta be patient, for once.

This is a month of disaster. And boredom. Been staying at home most of the time.
My eye sight has been failing me lately, mostly during the mornings. Thankfully, I didn't board the wrong bus earlier on.

Patience is the key pearson, patience. Whatever the outcome, be prepared but for now, be patient, for once.

pink ribbons

Dam. I dozed off while waiting for the computer scan to finish.
Its 5.45am now. Why do I have to wake up at this hour?! Now my body clock is even more screwed.
Monday blues @.@

Ich liebe dich (:

Just got home from 313@somerset. Was supposed to meet the dudes for awhile. I figured they might be going some place else but in the end, they decided to chill there. And so, I went home.

Oh yeah and I meet Su Ying, Davin, Kesh and Shinn @ the basement when I got there. They were talking about how to settle my outfit for Streetfest when just nice, I passed by. Talk about coincidence.

Anyways, I saw a few clothes that were pretty nice there. Think I'm gonna go shop for new stuffs next month. Its time I do a wardrobe change.

Alright, morning shift tomorrow. But I guess I won't be sleeping that early.
Goodnight everyone!

would history happen again?

Just got back from work. Was forced to stay inside the locker room as the rain was too heavy.


Had a very weird dream during my shortnap. My precious love mug was broken and my white shirt was so stained that I decided to just leave it as it is and wore them throughout a buffet session.
It felt so real. Because when I'm sleeping and dreaming, I don't have any troubles from the reality. I know it sounds stupid. Like I'm trying to avoid my problems.


Well its time to eat my medication, get my sleep and try not to think so much. Adios~

This is beautiful~

yoshiki ftw!

Home - Michael Buble

The conveyor belt finally killed me

Its going to rain soon.

I mused and I laughed many times within the short span of time. Its time!

Love, Me by Colin Raye

i read a note my grandma wrote
back in 1923
grandpa kept it in his coat
and he showed it once to me

he said boy you might not understand
but a long long time ago
grandmas daddy didn't like me none
but i loved your grandma so

we had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
get married in the first town we came to and live forever
but nailed to the tree where we were suppose to meet instead
i found this letter and this is what it said:

if you get there before i do
don't give up on me
i'll meet you when my chores are through
i don't know how long i'll be
but i'm not gonna let you down
darling wait and see
and between now and then
until i see you again
i'll be lovin' you
love, me

i read those words just hours before my grandma passed away
in the doorway of the church where me and gandpa stopped to pray
i know i've never seen him cry
in all me fifteen years
but as he read these words to her
his eyes filled up with tears

if you get there before i do
don't give up on me
i'll meet you when my chores are through
i don't know how long i'll be
but i'm not gonna let you down
darling wait and see
and between now and then
until i see you again
i'll be lovin' you
love, me

and between now and then
until i see you again
i'll be lovin' you
love, me.

too much rain, today.

Blesses and wishes to you. Believe in yourself, that you can do it. You have come this far, you have chosen this path. You must pull through this stage. You can do it!
have faith! Get well soon! <3

why did I even bother.

My heart beats faster whenever I see you online.

I hate to say this but my body is failing me now. oh shitz.

Pictures of me, Pictures of you

It takes months to find a customer,
seconds to lose one.

It takes a long time to find someone that you will be willing to give your all,
a few moments of foolishness to weaken that bond.

It is easy to be good. But it is even easier to be tainted.

The cards, the messages, the love

We're stronger than this.

O.K went out with the guys for prata and some discussion. Prata was..dam filling. Talked and talked after that in which I later went off for 5 minutes to have my quiet time. Went back and sat and talked for awhile more.

2 Plain pratas and 1 teh peng = 4.30
RIP OFF. Went to shanyou's rooftop later on and chill awhile.
Cocked about the condom idea and watched a video on fz's iphone about this monkey peeing into his own mouth and a woman peeing while lifting weights.
Great laughs. Took a bus home with Mao and Xh after that. And now I'm back.

Daily, I think of you. I'm missing you.

I talked to sky

Man, the night was long.

Have a good rest~

Just press the off button, pls

How have you been? How are you feeling today? Are you ok? Did you get a good sleep?
Remember to eat on time and drink more water. Study hard but don't neglect your health. Rest if you can. Time is tight for you, you're rushing for many things. Please take good care of yourself when I'm not around. Please, be strong.

belated

this came late but..happy 5th month... sniff