no sleep, poke power

Life is short, i gotta move on. I tried my best, but nothing worked out before. Quoted from loco, it is the compatibility issue. It was quite awhile and it was beautiful. But it is the past now.

as Friends...we can't even talk, what else?


sending my gf to work afterwards. its a friday!

its a beautiful 27

i think today was the most horrible day with nothing to do at home at all. i woke up feeling rather vexed over whats going to happen at work tonight.
anyway, i met my gf the night before. seeing you brightened my mood tremendously. thanks baby (:

this is the way i roll, like it or not. it ain't my problem....

love happens!

my bassist showed me this video on youtube:







i quit drums. LOL

a new glimmer of hope

thanks to Kaiwen and Wenshi, the early birthday present in the shape of a donut. Tasty, ate it. But I'm keeping the box. thanks !

Another sleepless night. unhappy with blogger, the bloody text toolbar is still missing. zzz...oh wait, i'm not sleepy.

Shift starts in 4 hours time, i guess i won't be sleeping for the night as well.
My phone update is taking DAM long. Ok, just the backup part. To update, all my stored data files worth 8gb will be gone after the update service. Hence, the need for a backup.

and dang, it just froze again for the 5th time. damit damit damit.

pfft, shall make myself a hot milo and do some situps.

if anyone is awake and reading this or was awake at this hour, i said hi. there, i'm being nice.

HI.

so i was awake, trying to figure the big chunk of memory loss from my computer's hard drive or rather, whatever ancients that was installed and i lost track of it.
no success at all..

had a cup of milo and about to sleep now. my work starts at 1430 hours. i don't get the reason why some people like to make a huge fuss over the way i describe time. i mean c'mon, i'm used to describing time that way at work that it becomes a habit everywhere i go so live with it.

thank you for all the corrections you had done for me. i'm sure it will help me in the long run, all the best.

blogger is still having errors on the toolbar. sometimes it was there and sometimes it isn't. geez.

ima lie down on the bed and dream.

scratch scratch

video was made for the substitute drummer of the band. hes standing in for the time being as i can't make it for the audition. a little mistake here and there...but he'll get the idea...

Fear is the absence of courage

I wonder why people fear the dark. The unseen, the unencountered or those that we do not wish to know.

People get scared easily. The only thing I can comment on is that, they watch too many horror movies. When the impression of what the Unseen is being exaggerated, they imagine. Dark spots, they cannot see, they start imagining the possibilities that could happen. A head, hand, bloodied head hanging, eye balls flying around (that'd be cool though), a hand out of nowhere comes scratching at your balls, anything!

grab a cuppa and chill. I think i'm more worried about possible robbers or whatever evils the mortals can do.

aye, cookies and chips, always the best.

Yang

late nights...this could be a problem.

some people never change...

i knew you, ever since i did an average profiling glance over you, 2 nights ago you brought nicole to my condo. and i knew, you haven't changed a bit. Nice try there, it was your fathers car. no, nicole didn't tell me that, i knew it myself even before you told me that your 'dad bought it for you'.

thank god she isn't as gullible as you thought her to be. what the hell do you think you were doing? you see her as a substitute just because you couldn't get another girl? you're more of a loser than i am. To think you even sent me a holier than thou message.

i'm not surprised bro...some people...never change...

A . V . P

pearson eckhard justus. says (9:50 AM):

*i thought your payday is 11th?

ϟ Nest says (9:50 AM):

*not 10

*no its on the 10

pearson eckhard justus. says (9:50 AM):

*then it should be here

pearson eckhard justus. says (9:51 AM):

*did you check last night

ϟ Nest says (9:51 AM):

*i just checked like now

pearson eckhard justus. says (9:51 AM):

*wah wtf

*mindef

*thats mindef for you

*LOL

ϟ Nest says (9:52 AM):

*wtf sia the online saf portal already got my payslip lol

pearson eckhard justus. says (9:52 AM):

*did they state when they'll credit the amount?

ϟ Nest says (9:53 AM):

*nope LOL

*wai

*wait

*only got date

*no time

pearson eckhard justus. says (9:54 AM):

*when is the date?

ϟ Nest says (9:55 AM):

*10 oct 2009

pearson eckhard justus. says (9:55 AM):

*then i think its today

*11pm

*zai zai

pearson eckhard justus. says (9:56 AM):

*see, SPF admin more efficient

ϟ Nest says (9:56 AM):

*wtf soo late

pearson eckhard justus. says (9:56 AM):

*hahahaha

some things are ok, some things just arn't

my hands are frosty and my body quite stiff. I woke up on the wrong side of the bed again.

have to leave the house by 12 for HTA. hope i'll get a good meal before that.

many things had happened during the past 2 weeks. Don't really wish to elaborate but to me its just something small. I can really practice ignorance.

anyway, claudine got into the force! wow dam, its just so hard to picture a dancer in blue uniform. haha! congratulations lady!

time to search for food. once my allowance comes, i am going on an eating spree.

eclipse

what have i been doing for the past 19 years?

CURRENT MOOD

no progress made today, i think I've just hit a brick wall. To be able to climb over it, I need a boost. A real big one.

And I know just the remedy and the people to administer it.

don't make a promise if you know you can't keep it

I was sipping on my soya bean by the pool benches downstairs 2 hours ago, exploring the data i've gathered for the vandalism case that happened in the basement. No prizes for the obvious but the culprit could have been anyone. But thats another story.

Shifting from gear 5 to Neutral. I wonder whats up next, with currently no direction to follow. I was feeling tired actually, but I discovered something and my emotions eventually spiraled downwards.

I am amazed I can still stand and laugh at myself in the mirror.

deep thoughts

once again, i'm troubled over my personal problems. whatever happened to the text tool bar of blogger?

if it'll ever solve things again or not, don't let it be this way.
i won't rant anymore.

if it ever will

this is the shittiest moment of my life. after being bombed by a warhead, i was stabbed left right centre.

just what is everyones fucking problem.

running low on battery

woke up quite early for today, time check is 0455 hours. couldn't sleep, can't wait.

picked up a couple of used books at the lift area of my home. a resident left it there in a small box, with a piece of paper pasted on it that says, "Please help yourselves to these books but leave the box for me to reuse".

i don't care how people view me, for picking up books that people no longer have any use for, call me a scavenger. Books are knowledge, till it is completely destroyed / due to wear and tear, it is still a book that can be read.

The books that this guy left there were books on culture, psychology and nations of the past. Nice, these were the kind of books that i have never touched before in my entire life till now. It isn't entirely interesting to the likes of many but, something to keep me entertained for the time being.


oh, and i took all 8 of them. selfish but i can't risk the janitor throwing them away the next morning. if the box is gone, i'll put a new carton box in another place with the words, "heres a new box for anyone with books to offer, its a more conspicuous location."

something to share, enjoy the music.

organise

1) book my driving practical
2) save money
3) save money
4) go shop for new clothes
5) prepare drumline for songs for new year countdown!
6) continue studying

more to come, i won't stop here.

Pata pon don chaka

Without you, i could never had understood myself. You brought joy to my life, just maybe not the other way round. Come back sometime, i would love to have your company and appreciate it wholeheartedly.

my left hand is shaking

i looked back a couple of times and went, wow. So this is the color of love, or was it just outright jealousy i feel? the fear of losing someone to another someone. Perhaps the reason for that is because that person is better than me and i hate feeling that way.

but i must say, it is the first time i'm getting such a feeling. it won't go away.
many of you people keep telling me that it fades as time passes by.
for a short while, it didn't. i doubt it will in future. Even as i moved on, it'll still be there.

i guess the only way i can respond to this is to give my well wishes. Nothing more i can do, just hope for the best, hope for the best for you.

And if fate permits (which sometimes is bullshit), our paths might cross again.

loving you. all the time.