ITS A NEW YEAR.

just got home from SBM's 27th anniversary. correct me if i got the anniversary wrong.

fruitful day.

the day i entered SBM, everything looks so perfect, shadowing the internal conflicts that began long before i stepped into the youth group. very soon, i found myself being involved (or you could say, interfering) from what wasn't my problem, became my problem (by my own accord).

cut the crapping short, the storm is over and once again we are embracing the new year with a new mindset, new goals and a group of promising committee leaders. i have faith in all my brothers and sisters to do a good job, so GO FORTH AND SPREAD THE DHAMMA. SBMY (PKL) will always deliver and support everyone all the way.

charges include GST.

and so it began,

the eve of x'mas and the day of x'mas, itself. miserable as it may seem to me, other people are enjoying it. this year, its my worst x'mas of all, and also the best.

whats bad is that, i have to book into camp in about 3 hours time since i've already exhausted all my leave days for my O level exams. brightside, went over to Ian's for a stayover. played guitar hero thruout the night. ridiculously, i learnt how to play the arcade version of the drums now ( which i know nuts about previously)

and i watched Yes Man with darling today. positive movie for a festive season such as this. enjoyed every movie watched with my girlfriend :D

Worst x'mas : 1
Brightside : 2

Conclusion : still a good x'mas.

wrong time, wrong place

cherise got this for me from japan (at my request)
still owe her 50 bucks. thanks!)
the wallet is there for show btw. LOL.

received 2 days of MC for a terrible mouth ulcer. i still think the condition was pretty exaggerated.
shall do revisions for law again.

my job, to make you smile (:

feeling miserably like shit.

woke up feeling a bad headache. was studying for law exams tomorrow. serious mouth ulcer (thats like 1 mm deep in my mouth muscles), sore throat and fever. i wonder whats next.

wasn't able to wake up to meet darling. its dam sad la. argh.
i miss her...

feeling a lil bored and tired of being with boring ppl for a week.

OK. so i'm sitting right in front of a slow computer, brought home by my kind dad who did his best to provide whats good infront of me. seriously, i didn't want him to bring a substitute computer back since it won't really do any good...and i was sort of ungrateful and spoke to him in a rude tone when i was booking out of camp cos i was agitated by something else.

sorry dad, didn't mean to. i love both you and mom. thanks for everything that you two have done for me...i won't ever be able to repay you both fully, but i'll do my best to make you proud.

yesterday (saturday) was kinda of a norm. woke up pretty early as i did not had a computer to keep myself awake late into the night before, i slept early after a small chat with darling.
after that, headed down to SBM for camp preparation. went to collect firewood from neighbouring shophouses. thanks a bunch for Tat Seng Stainless Steel Pte Ltd. The staff there were extremely generous and helpful, even helped us to move those palettes!

washed the tents while vicky and kaiwen got wet. prepared a few songs for the GLs to practice the campfire songs. rushed of for jamming after that. sad to say, i wasn't really impressed with my own performance. quite bad. sigh.

so anyway, went back to SBM again. slacked awhile and headed down to PS for jamming. again, wasn't pretty happy with myself. sigh. sigh. sigh. went to macs, ate a little...kaiwen and kevin went to play pool.

kevin: eh those girls not bad ah
xiahei: ee yer...
kevin: i mean their skills la!

a clear example of a misinterpretation, or different wavelength? :O

as usual, i'm missing my darling loads. ): booking in on monday night. how boring can that be? really wish for law exams to finish so i can concentrate on other stuffs. shall not slack at all during training and lessons. must pass!

miserably dry.

hence, another boring week has flown by. seriously, things can really be so screwed that it pisses me to my limit.
anyway, many tests next week...boring week again. if only weekends would come sooner for every month, it'll be splendid.
miss my darling loads, made a few mistakes, upsetted her and now everythings alright (: i'm sorry :\

im running dry. shit!

the On and Off switch.

please let me know if i'm not allowed to blog even this small of a detail.


yeah, and so i just got back from National Dental Care (actually, the consultation ended around 9 after Scaling and an X-Ray.

X-Ray showed no abnormalties in the growth of my wisdom tooth. Dam! the medical officer exaggerated my mouth condition...

"Gum infection, if not cured early, you might lose all your teeth"

and i was like :O

and the problem was just Gingavitis cos i didn't floss my teeth regularly.
argh.

anyway, went to bugis for mcdonalds breakfast. oh yeah, and the consultation + scaling + X Ray summed up a total of 173 bucks! thats serious money which could have been used for countless jamming sessions at a studio. decided to hop by the arcade for a few min to play percussion master...cheered me up a little...

trained home after that. now i'm sitting here, blogging and in 6 hours time, i'll be heading back to academy. bored...but i'm lucky to be allowed leave till 9pm. i have a very good Ma'm :D

missing my darling. sweet sweet loving hugs. (:

sweet loving kisses

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darlings always sleeping late >=(
anyway, went for 2 sessions of jamming. one for liberte, the other for SBMY. chern sing can play drums O.O

haha went cathay cinne to slack for awhile, saw a guitar hero showcase and the PKL gang went up to play and wow, i sucked at the drums for Guitar Hero World Tour. lol we got free guitar hero tees! the guy there managing was nice to offer us extras for the whole gang.

darling, if you see this, go sleep >=( your soon always very long. gah! *hugs*

nothing beats being organised and neat.

got a MySpace account and profile.

posted something on it, seemed kinda interesting and fun to blog there too. haha

http://www.myspace.com/seaweedrummer

new to myspace

as i'm likely to be murdered soon for using myspace (a word that only Chuck Norris may use), i'd like to say that i'm pretty impressed by MySpace's layout.

before, there was friendster. then came Hi-5 and many crappy network portals that offers complex to simplistic Html editing that allows you to customise your profile pages.

then came the age of twits within singapore and malaysia. well in anycase, times do change. i only join because my girlfriend did. haha i'm addicted to her (:

baby, if you're reading this, i want you to know that i love you alot and nothing is gonna tear me away from you! loves, Pearson <3


got some pain at the back of my mouth. wisdom tooth coming out? bit on my jaw muscles a few times, but no more now, just the pain of ouch, and ulcer?! i need dental advice. like, seriously.

PERSEVERE.

realised i haven't been updating for a long long time. trainings are slack, exams are coming, exams are coming also (wait, did i mention exams twice?)

yes, my 3rd retake of O levels and BPT exams are nearing. O Levels have already started, with BPT exams nearing. gotta pass'em all.

people always thought firing a gun is so easy. here, i shall share a lil bit of experience on shooting a gun with a live round. (DISCLAIMER: information shared are from the shooting experience i had when i was a Cadet in NPCC.)

aiming a gun, shooting it, the lead bullet fires off, propelled by the sudden expansion of gas caused by the gunpowder and primer. however, the bullet doesn't hit the spot you originally aimed for.
(its true by the way. shooting a gun like a marksman is not as easy as you may think people in movies do.)

so anyway, my point is that, if you're aiming for something in life, always aim for the best. don't be discouraged if the final conclusion you got wasn't of satisfaction. go ahead, go for another go. persevere, don't give up and keep on aiming for the best.

its not how good you do, its the amount of effort you put in. if it still isn't good, be wise and try another alternative. always give your 110% when you do something.

went for a movie today, max payne. great game, dissappointing movie. had a great day with darling :DD
auditions tomorrow afternoon. not that stressed this time though. muahaha.

booked out the day before, was delayed for an hour before we were allowed to return to our barracks and book out.

bought a new drumbag as the old one looks too shabby and worn. thanks old bag, for serving me this long. anyway, heading off for some errands inawhile...won't be able to attend LGF's gig. sad.

missing my girlfriend loads, as well as my family.
going off soon, meeting darling tonight :DD

cheers everyone. my eyes are tired from the shooting.

a moment of comfort.

just got back from the academy. dam beat, slacked, had light duty for 2 weeks for chao keng cos i needed the time to study. practical exams in a few hours time.

pissed many people in my squad off cos i kept dissappearing without notice. even the instructor this morning was angry at me for no turning up during physical training. argh, i just hope it won't leave a permanent black impression on him.

shall discipline myself more, shall work hard, train hard, play less and chao keng less. anyway, i've only chao kenged ONCE, so it shouldn't be that bad.
had a change in phone number, 90180868 (which was a freaking nice number) is no longer in use by me. don't know which lucky idiot will get this number, it'd prolly cost more to get this. should auction it, muahaha.

if theres anyone i failed to update my new mobile number, leave a tag behind.


don't say 6 weeks, even a weekends' confinement is enough to kill me for not being able to return home and see my girlfriend and family.
the moment i saw my computer, my hands were tingling like shit.

now i really feel like shit for my exams. argh

foolishness at its peak

having to live in a camp and worry about your loved ones, is really sickening.
to pour out and let your gf know of your doubts, is actually inflicting a big scar on her heart.

something which i've never experienced before. aw dam.

darling, we've been thru alot. quarrels were at minimum, doubts being kept as a secret. but nonetheless, i've been trying to allay all my fears and doubts so i can continue walking down our path with no worries at all.

5 months mean nothing. we shall not number and calculate the duration of how long we've been together. i know you'll read my blog, thats why i'm writing here. i'll be there to walk with you and care for you. i'll change my perspective in life, my views and my musical path, for we must grow and adapt with each passing day. this is our story and we shall end it happily together.

happy 5th month anniversary darling. its been great and always will be, loving you (:

ZZZ.

MOE is finally changing the path of their education.

focusing more on teamwork, character, confidence and leadership  qualities.

WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T THEY DO THIS EARLIER?! $%^#&@

absence makes the mind fonder

the amount of batteries used for charging my mobile. it just sucks that we arn't allowed to charge our mobiles using HTA's electricity supply. zzz

so anyway, booked out today. been waiting so looooooong for this day since i booked in last sunday.

peng. decided to kill time by just dozing off while reading thru messages sent by darling.

much missed with love, the departed Teo Liwei. may you find happiness elsewhere my friend, be reborn in a better realm. but for now, rest in peace. you deserve the rest.

<3 babygirl

another week of 'slacked' hell. i won't really complain since our training was pretty much VERY slack. and the early book out times were really a luxury to 133 intake.

the field instructors were harsh, but truly, it does have an effect on my attitude. move like lightning, sound like thunder. persevere!
i was never lazy anymore, the harsh training has instilled discipline in me, which i believe will do wonders in whatever i do in my music hobby.

anyway, i missed seeing my girlfriend so much (my parents too, i love my parents equally the same) that i kept nagging her for a neoprint shoot. i know its childish for a guy my age but i can't think of anything else compact enough to bring into camp that will allow me to see her face everyday.

this is what i'll see in my locker beside my bed when i wake up every morning:


i saw a full moon on wednesday i think. it was extremely round. joel said that upon seeing the moon, all of us are sure to think of home. hes so dam fucking right.


so the week before, which was my first book out, i went for darlings first jamming session. no extra comments on the drummer and vocalist but towards their attitude in forming a band, its seriously a -.- face for me. the drummer is cmi, his attitude is also cmi. arrogance and naiveness is all he has. vocalist, not bad but can be improved... i know, i'm a critic >=)

my beautiful and sexy girlfriend :D



move like lightning, sound like thunder! Foxtrot Company!

i miss my girlfriend, like a lot. i love you darling!

just booked out of the Home Team Academy. thanks to the Muslims, who were actually in their fasting month (you guys were great, enduring all the shit even when you're all starving yourselves). i can't say i'm that excellent myself, having neglected in my physical fitness for the past 7 months, i wasn't able to keep up with the training at 100%. but i improved on the third day.


many stupid idiots, as i've realised. High education + no common sense = fools.



Vindicare blue_avenger Kavvy Toufu_Master Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!!!!!! says:
EH?!

Vindicare blue_avenger Kavvy Toufu_Master Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!!!!!! says:
why r u online?!

pearson. says:
yes i am online

pearson. says:
lol

pearson. says:
just booked out hahaha

Vindicare blue_avenger Kavvy Toufu_Master Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!!!!!! says:
WTF!?

Vindicare blue_avenger Kavvy Toufu_Master Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!!!!!! says:
so hows army?

Vindicare blue_avenger Kavvy Toufu_Master Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!!!!!! says:
i mean pa

pearson. says:
quite ok

pearson. says:
discipline required,

pearson. says:
haha

pearson. says:
only got a few cocks in the batch

pearson. says:
and 1 bloody idiot in my bunk

Vindicare blue_avenger Kavvy Toufu_Master Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!!!!!! says:
define cocks

pearson. says:
* Level and dip**** holders, behaving like bloody virgins

Vindicare blue_avenger Kavvy Toufu_Master Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!!!!!! says:
lol?

Vindicare blue_avenger Kavvy Toufu_Master Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!!!!!! says:
siao one

pearson. says:
asked obvious questions, can't tahan physical training.

pearson. says:
and doing stupid things like scolding the instructor fuck you

pearson. says:
lol

Vindicare blue_avenger Kavvy Toufu_Master Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!!!!!! says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Vindicare blue_avenger Kavvy Toufu_Master Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!!!!!! says:
got kenna pump?

pearson. says:
ya la

pearson. says:
thats why i call them blardy virgins


nuff said.

todays the last day, in a few more hours, i'll be embarking on my journey in serving the country and community, as a Police Trainee (aka, Gahmen Dogs) so whatever, i'm gonna miss my bed, my drumsticks, my computer, my family and most importantly my girlfriend. oh wait, theres still the PKL.

k, loves to all of you. blesses.

NEVER WHINE

feeling energized, thanks to my gf. hahaha we both like to tease each other :D

dearest came over to my house in the morning, bathed and got ready to go out for a movie. watched walle. it was nice and meaningful too. trust me, theres more to what they showed in the advertisements. 10 bucks was worth it, seriously. had subway before that, couldn't finish on time.

and oh crap, i just realised i left the double chip chocolate cookie at babys house. dammit. LOL

nvm, she can have it (if you read this, eat the chip before the ants get it) speaking of which, she kept saying that her room was messier than mine (ya right =.=) her room was bigger than mine, has 2 amps and a spanking new bass by the closet corner. my gf is a good bass player. don't deny it =p

llingered for awhile longer at her house before i set off for punggol. thanks for spending the day with me dear (: love you loads. <3

and so, 2 days left before i enter the police academy. i'd say things were crammed into 2 working days, in which i have to get them done if not, there won't be time to do so at all.

darlings' coming to my house afterwards, before we go out :D love you loads, my dearest. <3

went for a short session with the SBMY band in the morning at Daisy Rock. other than the sound physics that was done up in the studio, i wasn't pretty much impressed with the maintainance of the drumset. good equips, bad maintainance.

): sigh. music lab seems to be the only place to have good and real musicians as staffs.

helped out in drums for a project by izu's friend. first time doing a recording, pretty excited!

this was all thats in the studio,

zhihui (the SAE student doing the recording proj), went to draw out more cymbals after the instructor commented about the limited variety of effects from the drumset

so, taking about 10 - 15 min for me to setup the drumset + tuning, and nearly an hour for the doods to mic up everything and do a sound check, we were only ready after 4.30pm



the only place where i'm truly happy is behind a drumset, and with my gf :D

recording started, took about 2 trial runs and 1 recording,

and thanks izu, for the zildjian sticks! haha!

loving my girlfriend, always and ever.

woke up in the morning laughing, had a hilarious dream. sat on the edge of my bed, feeling a little of an air head. exerted my knee muscles and stood up, full force.

the next moment i knew was a sharp pain to the top of my head and i went crashing back flat on my bed. my head had hit the edge of my shelf cupboard =.=

my first fear wasn't a cracked skull, nor was it blood.



i was afraid that there would be an empty patch over the wounded area with no hair.

tired, can't be bothered.

plainly if you thought whatever i shared was wrong, then you're the one being wrong yourself. stop acting all high and mighty, like a guy who knows everything. if you're so stubborn in what you think it is, don't bother talking to me if you never think before you talk nor did you research deeply into the topic which i was referring to.

simply to say, stfu.

Saturday, Vivo City, Castle In The Air

things seem to be hyping up.
todays is my sister's wedding. haha! the house is going to get noisy soon~

forced to tidy up my room. this is the current state now.

the 4th month (:

happy fourth anniversary, my dearest. loving you loads for the past fourth months. we made it happen! <3

STOP WHINING WHEN YOUR MOM DOESN'T COOK

waiting for mom and dad to reach. dad wants me to help in deliveries but i'm feeling lazy. lol
3 more weeks before i bid farewell to a life of boredom and head for the academy. oh yea cool.

HOLY SHIT.
*WORSHIPS*

[i][z][u][m][i][k][o]*恋しくて。。。恋しくて。。。どれほどの勇気。。。あなたがくれただろう。。。今も抱きしめている。。。 says:
but then realised is just admiring ...

[i][z][u][m][i][k][o]*恋しくて。。。恋しくて。。。どれほどの勇気。。。あなたがくれただろう。。。今も抱きしめている。。。 says:
now...

[i][z][u][m][i][k][o]*恋しくて。。。恋しくて。。。どれほどの勇気。。。あなたがくれただろう。。。今も抱きしめている。。。 says:
hum... who do u think?

[i][z][u][m][i][k][o]*恋しくて。。。恋しくて。。。どれほどの勇気。。。あなたがくれただろう。。。今も抱きしめている。。。 says:
veri easy to guess

pearson. says:
hmm now who you like a....

pearson. says:
NEO

pearson. says:
LOL



paiseh, internal joke. LOL

a bowl of noodles infront of me and a book after it. starting at the moniter screen, with gintama on it.

my life is starting to become like his, aw crap.

MCM on saturday. woo!

BOO.

its amazing. the amount of people who got pranked by my previous post. LOL.

the first victim was me, myself, after i saw the great "potential" of this GIF, i saved it (yes, it isn't my work) and added it to my GIF collections.

lo and behold, the people who got stunned and shocked by this gif. haha! its all in the name of fun, no hard feelings, yea?

metta to all, bless everyone whos reading this x)

ilovemydarling (:

this is a photo of western born japanese Kujo family. are you able to spot the similiar birth mark on their face? its interesting. check it out.

how many nose does jackie have?

probably the most ridiculous thing i had ever done in my entire life, is to question myself verbally (yes, by speech) while staring at my own reflection in the mirror.

which was plainly what i did in the evening. when things couldn't work out, i searched for an alternate solution, which is to realise my own mistakes and to compromise. nothing is much better, than to see the one you love, in a better mood (that includes my parents as well)

i was vexed today, ended up with short tempers everywhere i went today. even to my dad. sorry pops, i love you and mom still. i'll control my tempers in future.

and to my dearest, differences are nothing than just paper walls between us.
we are still one (:

so anyway, things are on the brighter side now. my livejournal is half dead, since i prefer to blog with blogger rather than livejournal but fret not, i will update it soon.

right now, i still have a bowl of noodles to eat and a bunch of numbers to crunch up from the TYS.

bless everyone.



conclusion of this post: jackie only has 1 nose.

sigh.

i said something wrong?

suddenly, i feel like eating shit.

God created Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve

i saw that phrase on a youtube video, called Repeal 377A. i laughed non-stop. hahaha.


dad used my beloved toothbrush that had served me for 2 years, to scrub the toilet tap.

D: sadface.

i found this email sent by a friend while i was going through my inbox...laughed non-stop.

thought i would share it with everyone and have a good laugh.

TEACHER:Maria, go to the map and find North America ..
MARIA: Here it is.
TEACHER: Correct. Now class, who discovered America ?
CLASS: Maria.

TEACHER: John, why are you doing your math multiplication on the floor?
JOHN: You told me to do it without using tables.

TEACHER: Glenn, how do you spell 'crocodile?'
GLENN: K-R-O-K-O-D-I-A-L'
TEACHER: No, that's wrong
GLENN: Maybe it is wrong, but you asked me how I spell it.

TEACHER: Donald, what is the chemical formula for water?
DONALD: H I J K L M N O.
TEACHER: What are you talking about?
DONALD: Yesterday you said it's H to O.

TEACHER: Winnie, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
WINNIE: Me!

TEACHER: Glen, why do you always get so dirty?
GLEN: Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.

TEACHER: Millie, give me a sentence starting with 'I.'
MILLIE: I is..
TEACHER: No, Millie..... Always say, 'I am.'
MILLIE: All right..... 'I am the ninth letter of the alphabet.'

TEACHER: George Washington not only chopped down his father's cherry tree, but also admitted it. Now, Louie, do you know why his father didn't punish him?
LOUIS: Because George still had the axe in his hand.

TEACHER: Now, Simon, tell me frankly, do you say prayers before eating?
SIMON: No sir, I don't have to, my Mom is a good cook.

TEACHER: Clyde , your composition on 'My Dog' is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
CLYDE : No, sir. It's the same dog.

TEACHER: Harold, what do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
HAROLD: A teacher

its a windy night. got a slight headache before darling nagged at me to go rest for the night.
wasn't able to after i took a shower so, neh =p

its a cold windy night, so cold it is, that i don't even need the fan or air con. seldom use the air con anyway...




the guitar hero craze thats revolving around kaiwens Nintendo DS. with a Guitar Hero special attachment. LOL

being in love,

its annoying. my china neighbours are annoying (i think they find us annoying as well, since we talk loudly sometimes too)

a few days ago, they were quarreling and i must say, it was pretty tense. till i could no longer bear the heat, i blasted 'I'll Kill You' by X Japan. kill each other and never disturb my peace again.

found out a few stuffs. at least you're able to carry on, i'm glad. move on, as i've done so. he really isn't worth your efforts and time. (and here i thought everything was going fine for you)
*yawn* slept well last night.

darling gave me a mrning call as usual, haha! always wanting to hear my wake up voice...her call today was quite late since school starts later on thursdays for her.

check out this faction http://s6.ikariam.com/index.php?view=allyPage&allyId=351,
(words that are in green are typed by me)

Holy
1. Kill all weak enemy players (that would be you people)
2. murder all abusive enemy players (that would be you people)
3. gang up weaker enemy players (that would be you people)
4. become strong than any player (that will never happen once DoIK purges you)
5. Trading resources must be free within members only (there won't be, we'll be takin everythign from you)
6. aid other members (you'd better, cos you'll need all the help you can get)
7. Thou shall not use two accounts (liars)
8. Thou shall not attack other member (you should, makes our lives easier.)
9. always cause war aginst your enemy (a very good reason to whack all of you)
10. always help the weakest member. you know hu!!!! (generally, just help yourselves)



after nest got to know about this faction, he told wencai (our faction leader) and hence, it has been declared


Botak Cai [13 Days to Launch] says:
We shall declare war on them when we are strong enough


Purge the heretics!

a man shall never relive his past.

thinking back, years back. many things i did were quite regretable.
if only time machines do exist, i could have avoided all the mishaps.
maybe even to the extent of not knowing my exes. haha


it projects a lame image of myself but heck.
people say i am childish, stupid, dumb and lazy, which i shall not deny.
at least i don't say real stupid stuffs like being a:

gangsterwannabeandtellingstoriesofhavingagangandtheabilitytosummontruckloadsofbangalasto

whacksomeoneandsendthembacktotheircountrywithmoney

(YES. PUN INTENDED.)

in anycase i'm just bored after maths revision. tried to sleep early but, sorry! dam. i told darling that i would sleep early. woops =x

ignore everything thats written above. in a r/s, the most important factor would be, yes,

Trust and Faith in each other. this has been the sole reason why xevio and i did NOT quarrel for a single moment for the 3 months we've been together.

Factor 1 : never get angry over a delayed message reply

often couples would quarrel when either side did not reply his/her msg after a period of time. both parties expect each other to reply the minute they receive the message. dumb isn't it?
phonebills are going to be on fire.

Factor 2 : never suspect your partner for cheating on you when he/she goes out with a

friend of a different gender.

sometimes i would get jealous but i never for once, suspected my gf of any weird stuffs. jokes aside, we never supected each other at all.

Factor 3: always trust your partner for being the best in everything

i think my gf is a good bassist (that means better than you too, nest LOL =x )


in case anybody will be wondering why i wrote all this, its a solution for someone. you know who you are. if things don't work out the way you want it to be, compromise (with COMMON SENSE) is the best solution. if all doesn't work, then he isn't worth your time.

this is not a middle finger

a day's frustration on how to overcome the problems i've been facing. hmm~

Xevio and XenO

whatever, just go die and leave everyone of us alone.

1 girl, 1 boy. a loving couple.

currently, i have three colonies! GloomKeep, Core Nexus and Pestilence Core. hahaha!

people call this inside trading but i'm not. i'm just hoarding different kinds of resources so i can help the doods.

studying today was quite ok for me. though i don't really like maths, i find it quite enjoyable tackling the sums. it seems i only enjoy studying when i am this old. no time for regrets, gotta do all i can. saw a couple of familiar faces from my previous school. but still, who ever has a good impression of me anyway? lol !

gig has been confirmed. 2 gigs. neo is seriously going to die on that day. haha!

tell your girlfriend how much you love her

holy shit i'm a private?!

holy shit i'm a private?!

holy shit i'm a private?!

master chief sucks at HALO

making breakfast for darling on our 3rd anniversary. <3>

i borrowed this razor mantis speed mouse mat from zhenglin. it really is perfect! i had a fun time sliding my mouse around and for the first after like 3 years, i'm back on the,

mouse sensitivity: 1

i'm like whoa. its dam smooth. and BIG TOO.

went for deliveries the day before, was at some DBS building, looked out of the window and decided to take a shot of the view cos i found it to be rather 'peaceful'







i swear to gawd i really didn't see my own reflection when i took the picture.

kaiwen: EXCUSESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!11!!!!!1!


don't believe? ask vicky.

what goes into your heart, stays there.

sitting in front of the computer, waiting for darling. shes still snoring away...haha.

lately i've been agitated easily. in games especially. for your info, i wasn't giving excuses (much as you like to think i was just 'excusing' myself for making 'excuses') but talk about making excuses, i have all the right to do so till you totally own me flat in the face. yes, i am annoyed. seriously, annoyed.

its just a game, i told myself. looking at the mirror, i can only laugh at myself for getting angry over such a trivial matter.

darling went emo again last night. sometimes, when you come across stuffs that was from your past, your heart aches. you feel stupid, you feel heartbroken and then you feel the utter uselessness when you were in his arms. to sum it all, you feel disgusted.

but all is in the past, your heart pains when you see your happiness, going about happily, undaunted by your presence while you stood there staring at him and wondering why he ever did that to you.

maybe my exes have seen me outside enjoying the bliss of ignorance in the company of my friends. maybe they have suffered as well. i have seen my exes behaving the same too (and knowing the private stuffs is even worse). my heart pains, but i told myself, move on.

generally, this sums up my thoughts for the day. kaiwen, no hard feelings.
its been a rather moody month, trying to keep it all in. wondering how long i can last~

happy 3rd month my dear! (:

man, you really suck.

dam. i seriously hate a particular band in superband. accusations, lies and backstabber.
you got your fame now, and you're going to abuse it? Neo and Davin didn't even bother you and all of a sudden you decided to dig everything up, mould it to your own liking and defame them?

ah geez, childish.



curse you out of the competition and whatever you do, ethereal.

just a day to our anniversary

yep, 3 months...i'm happy to announce that (: haha

couldn't sleep for days. tried to sleep early for this week but only managed to succeed for a day only. found my old logitech mouse, in my sisters drawer, 101% neglected care and in poor condition. to think that mouse was my CS mouse. saddening.

went out with Cloud-Seth today. (the name which melvin came up with) intended for a meetup to discuss the current problem : Castle in the Air clashes with TheEnigmaticArmy. quite shitty. both neo and i only found out that the 2 events clashed when melvin told me bout the date and i was like; craps our gig is also on the 30th too. argh.

wanted to meet shaun the organizer, but he didn't reply his email. called unseen for shauns number, unseen didn't get back to me. kinda late so nevermind, we walked around suntec and went to arcade. sucked at DDR, percussion master machine is down, played house of the dead 4. got owned at the first stage boss. lol

darlings been a dear to me nowadays. even though she was stressed and all, she kept her cool and hid everything inside, not wanting to worry me, but i got even more worried when i found out. iloveyou (:



its 4.27am. i even lost track of time. i thought it was just 2 am+. zzz

presenting, the band's logo:

Liberte™ !

artwork done by izu. haha thanks for all the efforts.

k gtg. nights.

i laugh, at your denying. hahaha!


baby showed me something yesterday and i must agree, the comic i humorous! its about blood types.




heres one of the few, uploaded. doesn't seem to be very clear, click on it to see it more clearly.

for the greater good, for TAU!

ah, i came across the Polaroids shalyn sent me eons ago. totally forgot about them. haha YPM! young people ministry. the shots were taken before shalyn left for Australia to study

(but came back again).

PS: the background was actually the YPM office. looks shabby but no, its quite big! equivalent to half the size of L Cube's suite.

its time to clean out my room and especially my drawers. its in a mess. ARGH.

missing my girlfriend, as usual. anniversary is coming soon :D happyface

we should probably spend time watching masterchief sucks at halo on youtube. haha!

don't worry, its just a parody.

somethings wrong with my tagboard but nevermind.

this is effing hilarious. i'm not even making this big and she, as i've always thought to be, one lonely attention seeker.

go on, chilly. since you want to make this big, thanks for 'warning' my gf about the potential threat for being with me. thanks for telling others and warning my ex girlfriends the same, and harping on it till now.

but lo, we think you're an annoyance. we've been together for 3 months and we're very happy, no thanks to the criticisms about me you told her. thanks again, but no thanks because the both of us are very happy right now. i should present you with an award as well, for leaking info to almost everyone, till even the troll knew bout my personal affairs. the others knew only the surface but they did keep quiet because it does not concern them and they can't be bothered as well.

why don't you do the same as well? mind your own business and stop caring/butting into other peoples private affairs?

you've stopped talking to her for a month already. but chill, chilly. just because its a month ago, that doesn't mean i will be VERY happy and just keep quiet when the conclusion of your acts starts ruining my mood.

and i don't hate you. i'm just very, very annoyed and angry of what you did and what you are trying to do currently.

make this big, post on the stupid forum, paint your house with "PEAR IS A SUCKER" or maybe start a revolution to put me down. just....just leave everyone alone.

post removed, i decided that it is pointless to blog about a troll.

i found this DAM hilarious video of a commercial on youtube. must watch. its a must watch.

i decided to try out the new features of blogger. there are so many functions the interface has now which made blogging with blogger in the past almost a relic.

first, i changed my template as you all can see. its much brighter and easier to read. secondly, the links...there this new tab in the layout settings panel that allows you to add links, name it and sort it alphabetically, automatically! LOL.

such convenience. truly ingenious. urrgh.


still, it doesn't have the private entries feature like livejournal, nor the password locked posts on wordpress. but blogger enables you to blog HTML free, without any HTML codes memorising. everything is simplified into buttons and links.


cool eh? girlfriend is having art. shes bored. i miss her. she misses me. hahahaha.

just imagine. imagine him sitting on that chair, relaxing himself.

so here i am, sitting in front of an apple computer once more doing artwork. simple ones actually. there are just so many things which i do not know yet.

walked into his office, felt the chair that he always sat on. looking at the walls, the films that he stacked and pasted on them, the shelves, and then back at the armchair again. imagined him sitting there like he always did, resting and waiting for us to hand him some artwork for checking.

yeah, we sure miss you alot uncle.

i'm thinking of giving my blog a facelift. not too much of a change though, considering some of the things, i can't bear to remove them. memories and many other events or such. i can't believe i actually linked objects with my memories.

so instead of the common black, (in which my url used to be emo kidd) i'm going to use white or prolly some lighter colors. but who cares, its not like i have many readers anyway. haha

be back later. gonna stare at the my girlfriends photo.

i wonder how long i can last without sleep. the computer clock shows 1.42 am, my phone shows 3.49. trained with teamCOD4.

before that, met my gf and brought her to kimhoes bbq. kimhoes gf to be precise. not alot of people turned up (much to my surprise). but as usual, i don't camwhore (so stop refering me as a camwhorer gay) ah fgs.


kesh seems to be emo still, wonder when he'll recover. i guess too much stuffs have happened between him and neo. i don't even know bout it till kesh and neo both told me.

so i went, mhhm. how are we to resolve this? we already have another plan set into motion.
what to do. whats next. argh.

random thoughts, inconsiderate people, people yapping when they're the ones who are inconsiderate and fools. i can't be bothered with them. most of the time, i'd stand thruout my journey on public transport. if theres ever a seat, it'll most prolly be when the carriage is almost empty. people who pretend to be gracious when they're not?


ridiculous.

i miss my girlfriend. thats all.

i can still remember the days when i was so yearning to be a gangster, an ah beng with long fringe and loose pants. all the accessories that an ah beng has. joined a gang, went out with brothers to slack, ton, drink, smoke and many other stupid things that i can't possibly list it out here.

kind of missed it, but i think its dumb. at least, not as dumb as the lian and beng wannabes today. one thing i've noticed is that, they will never change. from the past to now, its all hard-arm tactics. unhappy, meet. unhappy, settle and fight and blah blah. i mean, whats the point. lol

i don't mind facing off in a one on one but what are we going to gain from all that? the guy is still going to hold a grudge against me but for me? i'd heck care. lol call me a coward, but i seriously can't be bothered with small kids-beng-lian-wannabe trying to lecture me on morals when i know all that you have done that contradicts that.


anyway, had a weird dream that i was in some sort of a dungeon, a warrior holding on to an axe and swiping off monsters but at the same time, i felt the fear of being struck (that kind of feeling, you know?) and so on and so forth...think its due to playing Dawn Of War before i slept yesterday..LOL shit. games can really have a big impact on your minds.